As Long As I Don't Signout

Ok. I still can post with my phone as long as I don't sign out. But i'm still in the middle of creating a new blog with "nbxf-leisure@hotmail.sg". You can add me on Google and youtube. Not msn or facebook. I'm only using this email as a personal thing. As I have mixed up the official email with all the junkie youtube and personal blogs. So wanting to sort which email for what kind of usage, I decided to delete all the stuffs and restart all over.

Talking about restart, I have really been restarting a lot of things lately. Mostly during FYP period. Haha. Yeah, anyway, catch me using that email I mentioned above. I will also be creating a blog that is rather official in a sense that its professional, ah, how should I put it... Erm, like a portfolio of stuffs I do to reach out to people who has common interest as I do, not all the emotional or whatever crap. I think it should be clear enough. So one blog for stupid stuffs, another which is more serious and formal. Yeah. That's the way. Haha.

Currently, lying down on my bed. The thought of what to do for FYP for tomorrow didn't come across my mind at all, almost forgot about FYP. I'm like taking it so lightly... I should sleep now. They'll be gone at 9:30am tomorrow. I shall be the Queen of this house for 4 days! Hahahahaha. :D

- Peace

Blog Permanantly Deleted

I wonder why doesn't the phone goes hand in hand with my desktop. Anyway, i've deleted my Google account, which means this blog and Youtube accounts are removed. I'll be creating again with a new email. So yeah. This will be my last post on this page. After 90 days it will be permanately removed. Alright. So ciao! :)

Stress-less FYP

I ain't stress, just busy with the things that I should do. CR, you're rushing us to do model too quickly in the first place. Now, what we have aren't strong concepts and not very related to the site. I shall do what Uncle said today and CR, I'll still do the hexagons. I hope both people's comments will tie up nicely together. :)

I am not going to do any work tonight. Time for me to rest a lot since I slept for only 2 and a half hours last night. Alright, won't be online for a week as long as I'm at home. Internet connection will be down as my family is changing from Singtel Plan to Starhub. I hope I won't need to do any research during the weekends.
Though I do not have internet connection, I do still have a phone that has data plan. So yeah. Not that bad after all I guess? For the coming week, there will be 4 days of peace as my family except my father and me are going Genting. Enjoying life while I am working hard for FYP. Hahaha.

Tomorrow will be a Friday. I guess I won't be going to school to do work. Seriously, this month's bus concession is really a waste for me. Most of the time I was staying at home. Whenever I need to go to school, my brother or father will drive me there, since I'll be carrying model. Whenever I am going home, my brother will fetch me if it was convenient. If they aren't free, I would just take a cab. Haven't hear the "di di" tap sound for a long time. Haha.

Alright, time for me to say goodnight!

- Peace

Blister On Fingers

Thanks to Chicken Rice's (CR) idea of hexagons, I had tos cut piece by piece and it takes about a hundred of the, to fill a simple A1 size model. Anyway, I was exaggerating. Yeah, so all the cutting caused me to have 4 blisters on my fingers...

CR wants form, but I don't have. I am not building new stuffs onto or into it! My idea is simply providing to the activities that i've proposed to solve the issues that I am more concerned. No form no form no form! Always form form form, I don't want give you~ Lol. I hope what i've done just now till 4:30am is alright for later's consultation...

Strange that i'm still not sleepy... Must be the music that I am listening to. Haha. Yeah, i'll just close my eyes and rest now. Gonna wake up in 2hrs to continue with the hexagon model... Anyway, i'm using my phone to post on my blog. So cool yo! Haha.

- PEACE

To Kai'en

She posted,

"actually ur rust and cracks are talking our the past and to the present. from past staying until now. from the rust leads you to the molecules and derive the hexagons..
2010-12-07 7:14 PM"

Yeah. But the missing part is the stress that I should have. Other than that, it feels like there are some missing parts here and there along the way, but what are those missing parts. Still, thanks anyway, it was helpful. Now I just need to execute the design and blah blah blah. Haha. Happily drinking coffee now, not intending to sleep tonight I guess.

- Peace

Going To Sleep Now!

I felt that there's no point for me to stay up the entire night. Its so irritating when the design is neither here nor there. Whenever I want to start doing, I'll get stuck. What's wrong! I don't know what I'm doing, don't know where to go, don't know what I should do, don't know everything about FYP. I have so many different processes that are not related, which in turn, no process at all...

After 6 or 7 weeks of FYP, I've changed a total of 5 different concepts. First, the timeline. Second, the watch mechanism. Third, the colourful model. Fourth, the molecules. Last, the hexagon. Ah! I kept having the feeling of retaking FYP.

No mood to do work, no mood to think (not even thinking at all), no mood to show lecturers what I've done. Uninspired, unprepared, messy, disorganised, I don't want to do FYP~ I hate this feeling of not thinking when I should be, not doing when I have to do, not enthusiastic and not motivated.

:(

It is 1:11am...

As Davin asked me about what I want for my Birthday, I suddenly remembered that I forgot what you have given me for my birthday last year. Did you give me? Did you give me not? I really don't remember. So hoping to find some clues, I went to take a look of my old live journal. I couldn't find the date, 20 Dec. I've stopped posting in November 2009. So went to my current blog and search for the very first post. Didn't expect it to be the saddest one of in the entire blog posts. So, read through the things I have posted during May 2010. The emotions came back when I was reading those posts, but as I am typing now, my emotion is quite calming. Have I really gotten over you? But your sudden text message a few weeks ago took me by surprise. Anyway, I just wish that we can still talk like friends. :)

Yeah, time to continue with my work. I am targeting not to sleep tonight! I will pull through the night! Hahaha. I hope... -.-

- Peace

FYP Progress

I'm almost done with site model. Still left with the 2 shelters that stretch across the station. Seriously, it is just plainly the model of the site without any design at all. So on Thursday night, I slept at 6am and to do the still-to-be completed site model. Woke up at 8am and didn't continue with the model. Yesterday was wasted as I was slacking and such. So I've made a point that I will have to do something for FYP today and tomorrow. Guess I won't be sleeping tonight.

Recently, or I should say, since the start of FYP, I haven't been very focus at all. Why? :(

Anyway, all the best for Monday's Scheme Review 02. Yeah, I hope my concept is clear enough...

- Peace

Have To Settle Down

I guess I won't be sleeping tonight yeah. Need to do a lot more than others so as to catch up with them. Hey, I restarted the entire thing remember? Haha. Yeah...

There's a problem with the way I articulate. "Bus Driver" said I am not romantic enough. The way I talked to him about my idea, doesn't seem convincing for him. He said I need to be more expressive. Though I seriously have a lot of facial expressions, but it is not the appearance. It is the verbal expression. But seriously, "Bus Driver", words don't come out from my mouth as easy as your's. Why not give me your brain and your mouth during presentation? Hahahaha. But I did learn something from him though...

Well, so it is time to settle down with what I have and what I am doing now. What I have done today is like the first or second week of FYP when it has already passed 6 weeks. So better pace up and catch up with my classmates!

Time to do work!

- Peace

Seriously, Just Damn It

I'm back to ground zero once again. My mind really isn't working. Not in the FYP mood at all. Everyone's doing so well, I'm there with nothing. Felt so much like a failure. Why is all this happening? This is like the worst time ever for my entire education years. So f**king irritating. I hate what I am doing and just hate it when I am doing for the sake of showing them something. I have no feel for the site, neither do I have any inspiration for it, I do foresee a bad outcome. This sucks very much really. Why things happen for FYP?

Slacking and Listening Today

I was the second last person to present today. Guess what, I was being pushed to tomorrow... Well, somehow expected anyway. This was like the first time I actually sit in to listen without doing my own stuffs, like hiding in the other corner of the studio, which I usually do. Heard of my friend's work, their design approach, etc... Each of their work is different and interesting.

Alright, it is time for me to sleep soon. Was watching Nigahiga's videos on YouTube.com just now after the critique and played Ka Ka Boom on Keyzin's iPad. Reached my personal record of 900+. Yeah. I know it is very low for majority, I admit. But, play DjMax with me la! HAHAHAHA!

Enough of crap already. Tomorrow, I'll be the first to present. I hope everything goes well, always have this unrest feel inside of me. Maybe because I changed my entire scheme and concept like 5 days ago? Scary huh, when everyone's working on their work for 7 weeks, I just started a new concept within a week... Well, no doubt that my stuffs will be lesser than the rest. Yeah...

Goodnight dudes.

- Peace

"Watch this if you're bored. It has Jay Park inside!"

NAUGHTY is better!

Yeah, on my way home, I bought 2 cans of NAUGHTY from the 7/11 at Tampines Interchange. It was so much cheaper than the Red Bull that I drank yesterday. The cola flavor tasted very nice. :)

I drank at 7pm and it is still keeping me awake now. I should be sleepy though, since I slept at 2am and woke up at 6am just now~ Haha.

Yeah~ Its Interim Critique tomorrow, I hope what I have done will not be rejected? Currently, doing model now. I am going to do 1:1000. Lazy do so big ah! Not enough materials also...

Last of all, my maid so annoying, she standing beside me in the room folding the clothes and falling asleep. Ah! Annoying! -.-

- Peace

Waking up at 6am

Yo my blog, tomorrow is a Sunday, but I need to wake up at 6am. Going for a site walk with Group Up Initiative (GUI). Yeah, will be meeting at 9:30am outside McDonalds of King Albert Park. Which is located near Clementi? I will be taking a bus there which is 67 from Tampines Interchange. Yes, TAMPINES! Expecting 66 to 70 bus stops..... I wonder if I should bring a jacket and seriously just sleep in the bus. I believe it will be more than an hour. Whatever, just hope it really worth the long long long trip...

Have been wasting some time today. Went to take a nap, watch Korean Variety Show "Running Man", surf the internet. Not very productive huh. Well, just start doing some work now... What time shall I sleep tonight? I'm lacking sleep this few days...

- Peace

Am I Lousy?

Recently, I haven't been able to stay awake for the entire night. The first night, I slept at 4am, consequently, 2AM "Bling, hidden meaning". LOL. I'm going to bed 2 hours earlier... Though I wake up at around 7am everyday, I find that I am getting old. Hahaha.

Okay, shall do my work now~

- Peace

Cell Group At My House!

Alright, I thought I can have some peace to do FYP... But well, they decided to come to our house for Cell Group. I just hope the kids won't come into the room and disturb me. Haha.

Yeah. Went to site today, got the things that I needed. Walked so much and nearly got myself lost... Right~ Hahaha.

Ok. Time to do work...

- Peace