It feels like how I waited for you in the past when you were just a recruit! 2 weeks or so without texting and calling. Haha. I really do hope that we can still talk in anyway because your quietness to me is so disturbing, as though something is stuck within me. Don't shut me up entirely as I really want to be a friend who cares and talks to you. To forget you is impossible.
I don't know how you've been doing. I've been blogging because I don't want to seek so much attention from other people just to listen to how I feel and think. At least by posting them here, people understand but won't talk to me personally. For me, it is just a way to release whatever I want to say so I won't keep so many things inside if not I'll die of depression! Haha. However, by saying it here, it lessens what I am thinking and feeling in a way that I won't keep replaying that memory.
I have no intention to offend anyone.
I had once asked you a very common question, usually a girl would ask,"what if one day your mother and me were drowning, who will you save first?" Your answer was that you'll save your mother. I was like so sad... But you followed on with,"then I'll go back into the water and die with you." That very moment I cried as I was so touched. I also remembered telling my friends about it and was about to tear again that day.
