Another Sleepless Night Again?

Today was submission from 1500 to 1530. Slept 2 hrs from 6am to 8am only. Guess what, I have report submission tomorrow. I'm like 10% done only? I guess Paul wants to see a lot of stuffs. A report can't be so short. Zzz... It is also my presentation tomorrow. I'm first for the other class after the class ahead had presented. I need to prepare what I want to say. I think I'll take about 1 to 2 hrs of preparing script and rehearsing. -.-"

Hmm. I shall wear heels tomorrow! Not going to bring slipper! Or maybe? :x

P.S. I'm seriously so tired but I just won't give up! Because it will be over soon, I'll have the entire Firday to sleep! :D

Hello! I'm Going Crazy!

Alright! I don't know how I managed to pull through. I feel like I'm in a mission since Wednesday last week. Slept for 3 hrs on the night itself, 1hr 30mins on Thursday night, 2hrs on Friday night, 3hrs on Saturday night, 4hrs yesterday night and took 2 hrs of nap this afternoon. I only slept 15 hrs 30 mins throughout the 6 days. LOL! Really LOL! So what have I been doing? Doing Project 4 duh! Here's some pictures of my completed model! :)





Alright, I've also done a draft report this afternoon and sent over to Paul for comments already, waiting for him to reply my email. Currently, I'm doing storyboard for my Project. I've decided to change everything. Layout to the smallest detail. All the best to me! I shall drink coffeessssssssssssssss later~

P.S. Go fighting! Be happy! :D

Oh Great

Please note that for tomorrow and Friday (8/7 and 9/7), both Yah Li and myself will be available to run through with all of you, individually, on the following,

final model materials
final board layout and materials to include
part models (if any)
packaging of information

Please note and the consultation will be scheduled at level 6 studio and attendance is compulsory for both days.

I have appointment in the afternoon which means I'll be skipping consultation tomorrow. On Friday, I'll be consulting Paul the report draft in the morning at 9am. After that, what do I do from 12pm to 3pm? I'm making model at home other than that, I can't do board for it will be a waste of time as I prefer doing model first in case I do not have enough time to render perspectives, I can use my model pictures. I need to think of some things to do during that 3 hours. Maybe I just tell them what I've bought for my model making, then a sketch layout of my storyboard. LOL. What's the point. LOL LOL LOL -.-"

Since it is compulsory, I'll be the first to consult. Once done, I'll head home to do work. Meanwhile as I am free between 12pm to 3pm, I can do my Colour&Light report. Yes! That shall be the plan. Alright! Back to my journal. I left 5% and I'm done. Anyway, I've passed the time I've set previously! So disappointing! Its like 5+hours over schedule. -.-" Oh great...

I'll Forget About It

I'm not pissed or whatever, just that I should not hold on to it anymore, since I've made that decision. The reason for why I wanted to wait, hoping to patch things up was I think when I was in desperate time, I wished you were there. But when that point of time is over, I feel that I can handle things by myself again. For instance, when I was rushing for drawings, I did not think about you or anything else. The thought of loneliness did not seem to fall on me. I guess when I'm too free, I'll start to think far far away, which made me think of you and the past. All the "what if" and "if only".

Alright, I hope you know what I mean. I'm sorry again. I guess you're not actually thinking that much right? Anyway, I feel like the bad guy. Saying this at this moment, then changing it afterwards. Zzz.

Well, I'm doing my journal, page 7 now. Left about 15% then I'm done. However, I still need to take photo of my models at 1pm and 5pm, then they'll all be done. I'll be starting my poster at about 12pm which I think I'll be able to. I guess I won't do so much designing stuffs to save time. Maybe I'll just spend 3 hours or less doing that. I think I can complete Colour and Light assignment 1 by 7pm today. Yeah!

After dinner, I'll start Project 4, final model! I'm so excited, nervous, afraid and ahh! Hmm. I think I'll sleep at about 2am tonight. Shall wake up as early as possible for I'm going to Peace Center tomorrow to print 2 A2 posters(easier to take bus back) for submission at 10am in school! I wonder what time the shop opens...

P.S. I say, we are still friends! :D

Hahaha, Pathetic (See Below)

Ok. Whatever, I'm actually getting back on track again. Not feeling so emotional. I guess its because of period? Hahaha. Yeah, 6 July 10 is submission for technical drawings. Guess what! I'm not anxious at all. Something is wrong with me. I have completed site plan (shows surrounding and roof), first storey plan, 2 elevations. Currently editing sections.

For colour and light, I have finished model 6, I really hope that Paul doesn't say something which that something is something that some thinks it isn't helping. Ahh! He just comment on it, but doesn't tell you what you can do. Paul will go, "Huh~ Why your model become like that? What happen to those previous models you've made? Where's the xxx? You need to change some but not too much." Wow~ Thanks. -.-"

Ok. So if I still have the spare time, I might continue with colour and light journal. Anyway, my mother wants me to reborn my hair. It will be this Thursday! Ahh! The hair stylist coming to our house! Ahh! Ok. I realised I screamed a lot. Stop! Ahh! I just ahh! Screamed! Ahh! Hahahaha! Back to work. Byebye...

I Am Pathetic

Until now, I still cry...

Westilfe - I cry - lyrics

If time could go back, I'd rather not make that decision. But like what I've said, I have indeed learnt a lot both pros and cons. I guess I can't really express how I feel afterall, that's why I'm not telling anyone much about how I feel or whatever other than talking about school work. So compressed within me...

Post 51

Everything just seem so impossible to reach. The plans that I've made I thought I could complete them. Why do I not have that motivation and perseverance. Why do I not feel excited and enthusiastic in doing work like the past. This is so not me. Who am I now? Who? :(

It has been almost 8 weeks and this is the 51st post. I'm still waiting, this time rather patiently. But whenever I think about waiting, I'm always afraid that it'll all be in vain. I feel that I'm spending too much time on facebook, more than usual. Maybe because that is the only way of socialising? My MSN is having problems, the stupid Singnet is horrible. I can go DC for more than 10 times per day. Freaking annoying. I'm starting to slack more, watch television which I don't do that much in the past.

Frankly, the only thing I do on facebook is to scroll down the home page to see the recent news, hoping to see anything from you. I feel so much like a stalker. If I have comments, I would reply, if I have a deadline for my game, I'll visit that game. But the real motive aren't those.

I really don't know how to focus. I'm tired of school and everything.

I Vomited Today!

How great can this be. As usual I was alright for the first few hours of menses. Then came the common symptom... Zzz. So all the drama began in school, which I don't think I want to talk about in detail. However, if you're interested, you can always leave me a message. Hahahaha! Yup. So today will be a rest day for me. While I'm on my bed resting, my fingers will still be clicking though. :x I can't just lie on my bed doing nothing you see, so I'll be doing some AutoCAD drawings as well. Haha.

P.S. Ok, I'll give you more time, I guess you've seen my post. Haha. :)

So Tangled Like Never Before

I thought it will be a good ending to end everything all at once. I thought it will do good for the both of us. I thought things will go back to normal in time. I have no idea what I'm doing. Am I throwing myself into the river to drown and wanting to be rescued as well? I don't know where I'm heading. Everything is falling down on me, they're just too much for me to handle.

I do things without thinking, sorry if I've forced you again. I know I did, somehow threatening you to give an answer. Why am I such a person who dug my own grave, now wanting to be dug out. In the first place, I should not have asked for it. But if I hadn't done so, I wouldn't have learnt so much. The reason for patching is not only because I still love you and that I miss you, but I want to continue this relationship with a different perspective.

In the past, I know that this relationship will not work, but at that point of time, I was always medidating on the negative side, so I decided for the break up, which I've learnt to seek further and think about my future life. I know that in future, I'll be with someone else, most likely a christian. But I feel that this thing is seriously personal. After the few weeks of reflection and missing you, I began to understand that it is not too late to continue the relationship. There are still so many years ahead. Who knows what will happen. So why not let time lead us.

However, all I need is a yes or a no from you. This marks the new start or the finale.

P.S. It really disturbs me waiting patiently, because I just can't focus with school.

I Need The Answer

I really need the answer, because it is killing me inside-out. I feel so compressed, so suffocated and really on the edge of giving up. Yes and it will be a happy ending, back on track like the past. No and I'll try to move on, I'll vanish totally, erase everything about you cause I might go crazy if there's any bit of memory of you. I can't take it anymore. Please give me an answer for me to move on either both ways.