MC Today | Or Self Proclaim Leave?

This is my second MC during internship period. I slept at 3:30am, felt that I still don't have much time to complete a lot of things for my storyboard. Why should I exhibit a board with a quality which I feel that I should have done better, deposited 100 bucks, put in time and effort into this exhibition? That's why, in actual fact, I am taking a leave, but school doesn't allow, so I am on MC instead. I have too many things that I want to change for the storyboards. I want to meet my own expectation which I know I had failed to during Project4 submission.

It all depends entirely on individuals, what kind of goal you're setting for yourself for this exhibition. Juggling both SIP and ArchiFest aren't that easy. Wake up at 6am, go to work, reach home at 7pm, start ArchiFest work at 8:30pm till almost 1am everyday. Why not just take a day off.

I do wanted a clean record on attendance, but I don't want to affect my own exhibition, because is my exhibition where EVERYONE will be seeing it. I just believe that as long as I have positive attitude, hardworking during office hours, do what they say, etc, it can cover much on my MCs. Anyway, my team in RSP knows that we are busy on Archifest, they don't really require us to stay late everyday. I'm quite glad that I'm in that team.

I am talking to much. I'll get a MC later this afternoon when the day gets drier(A very good, cold and cloudy day to stay at home!). I am off to do AutoCAD drawings now. I'll be putting plan(one will do), elevations(4 sides) and detail sections(demarcate on plan, change the past detailing, which had so many mistakes!).

Bye bye! SHINee, Ring Ding Dong Ring Ding Dong... Haha. :D

Friday | Saturday

Had meeting on Friday with Archifesters, then reached home at 12am. While I was on my way home, Kai Jing told me that Eben, Pris, Qiu and Matt were outside now, wondered if I wanted to join, since EBEN is driving! Haha. I have never sat on any car driven by a friend who is of the same age as me before, quite interesting. So yeah, they picked me up at 12:30am.

Headed to Airport at TCC, chilled there till 2am? There it was, debating session between relationship and religion. Zzz. Anyway, I'm still surprised that I used that "BIG" word instead of the "small" word. Well, both words start with "L", which I guess you know which two words I'm referring to. That word gave me away.. Anyway, it has been a past, I'm moving on. Memories will indeed last forever.

To Matthew: The longer you drag, more memories will be made, the harder for you to give up.

To Eben: I agree to a certain extend of just loving and enjoying the moment of relationship while being young still. Anyway, a couple cannot be compared with another couple.

Apart from the topic above which you've read, I'll now talk about how I spent my Saturday! It wasn't exciting! But I just want to put in exclamation mark! Like this!!! I slept at 3:30am, woke up at 7:30am, did perspectives rendering, typed my word document for ArchiFest brochure, had lunch, watched Korean variety shows, napped, had dinner, did renderings again, watched Korean variety shows, did renderings again, snacked, listened and ended up watching the Korean Music Videos, slacking on my bed now. So freaking boring~

P.S. The songs you posted seem so emotional. Take care. :)

What To Do

Its a public holiday and its National Day! I really don't feel like doing storyboard today. Woke up at 8 this morning, tidied up Archifest stuffs so that I can send email to my set-up team later tonight. I've spent 3 hours watching Korean videos. "We Got Married" is really addictive.........

I've just showered, now sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of what to do later. I want to nap but I'm not tired. I want to do storyboard, but no mood. I want to watch TV, but no show interests me. I want to eat, but nothing much to snack on. I want to read! Yes! I can read! Hahahaha!

I think my mood is getting back. I shall finish up the entire book "This Is My Story" which I didn't manage to finish up that time, while lying down on the bed. After that, I'll nap, send email, have dinner then do my storyboard. I hope I stick to my plan...

P.S. I really need to keep myself occupied, if not I'll start thinking of you again... When will this ever stop?

60th Post

This entire week passed so quickly again. I remembered taking MC for Tuesday, doing contours on Thursday and Friday, drank on Friday at COSMO outside Wisma, met up my lecturer to discuss on Archifest yesterday, Saturday, then caught a movie SALT with Kai'en and Sihui. Went to church just now, I just feel like slacking...

So, I was clearing my hotmail inbox, cleared the junks, deleted whatever mails in the deleted folder. Clicking through the folders I've created, first was the "Important School Work" so I had all the mails on Portfolio Review, but I deleted them anyway. Next on the list was folder "Personal". I don't remember what it was, so I opened it up. To my surprise, they were emails from KT. The first email was when I went on a trip to Taiwan.


16 Dec 2008: Hey laopo. this is shit man. i don like to type in email ;x I CANT SLEEEP! UR FAULT LA! WHY U GO TAIWAN :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( anyway i had my medical checkup, i tink i dying soon lol.
day 1 is miserable. 7 more days to go. )))))): BYE BYE! <33

17 Dec 2008: 6 more days!!!!! :D <3 <3 <3

19 Dec 2008: laopo. i wanna talk to u badly )): i tink this will the last email le. i wont be online le. STILL GOT 4 DAYS )): FASTER COME BACK! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I was touched again by the email sent on 8 Jan 2009.

Alright, I'm going to take a half an hour nap. Then I'll do my storyboard and dinner at my sis-in-law's sister's chalet at downtown east. They just love chalets so much. Byebye. :)

Where Have I Been

I was on internship for the past 2 weeks. Too tired to even on my laptop every night when I reach home, that tells why I haven't been spending time updating my blog. So for the past 2 weeks, I'm so intensively drill with Photoshop that I can seriously do rendering without the tool palette on the screen, everything is short cut, short cut and short cut. Strangely, I find it fun and time seem to pass so quickly... Tomorrow will be the 3rd week of work, but I'm no longer doing renderings. I'm going to do topography drawing with AutoCAD, as briefed last Friday, it seem pretty tedious and time consuming, just like those renderings.

So did I have time to enjoy and have fun? Of course I do! The first week of Friday, we had Archifest meeting, had dinner at Marina Square foodcourt, after that went to a Bar at Esplanade for a drink. Crapped and chilled, but managed to hop on the last train back. Haha. Then 2 days ago, we had a gathering organised by Kai'en. Went to MOF for dinner at Bugis, initially wanted to chill at a PUB along the street, but it was packed and noisy. I think we only prefer BAR which is more quiet and peaceful than CLUBS or PUBS. (Well, I haven't been to Clubs or Pubs anyway, but just by the appearance also seeing and hearing what's on the inside through friends' photos, the places just feel so complicated)

1 August, my menses haven't visit me yet. Haha. Didn't go to church, so was my family because En Kai (new born nephew) cried for almost the entire night and Debby was having fever. How I spent my Sunday was watching Clash of the Titans again, half way through the book "This Is My Story" by Kasandra Kong, which I guess I'll finish it by tonight? Since its only 271 pages. Hahaha.

P.S. "Is your decision made on sand or cement? Only the test of time and situation will show it all. When the waves break the shore, what's on the sand will be gone with it. Once cement turns concrete, it stays regardless rain or shine." The decision to pursue happiness. :)

Another Sleepless Night Again?

Today was submission from 1500 to 1530. Slept 2 hrs from 6am to 8am only. Guess what, I have report submission tomorrow. I'm like 10% done only? I guess Paul wants to see a lot of stuffs. A report can't be so short. Zzz... It is also my presentation tomorrow. I'm first for the other class after the class ahead had presented. I need to prepare what I want to say. I think I'll take about 1 to 2 hrs of preparing script and rehearsing. -.-"

Hmm. I shall wear heels tomorrow! Not going to bring slipper! Or maybe? :x

P.S. I'm seriously so tired but I just won't give up! Because it will be over soon, I'll have the entire Firday to sleep! :D

Hello! I'm Going Crazy!

Alright! I don't know how I managed to pull through. I feel like I'm in a mission since Wednesday last week. Slept for 3 hrs on the night itself, 1hr 30mins on Thursday night, 2hrs on Friday night, 3hrs on Saturday night, 4hrs yesterday night and took 2 hrs of nap this afternoon. I only slept 15 hrs 30 mins throughout the 6 days. LOL! Really LOL! So what have I been doing? Doing Project 4 duh! Here's some pictures of my completed model! :)





Alright, I've also done a draft report this afternoon and sent over to Paul for comments already, waiting for him to reply my email. Currently, I'm doing storyboard for my Project. I've decided to change everything. Layout to the smallest detail. All the best to me! I shall drink coffeessssssssssssssss later~

P.S. Go fighting! Be happy! :D

Oh Great

Please note that for tomorrow and Friday (8/7 and 9/7), both Yah Li and myself will be available to run through with all of you, individually, on the following,

final model materials
final board layout and materials to include
part models (if any)
packaging of information

Please note and the consultation will be scheduled at level 6 studio and attendance is compulsory for both days.

I have appointment in the afternoon which means I'll be skipping consultation tomorrow. On Friday, I'll be consulting Paul the report draft in the morning at 9am. After that, what do I do from 12pm to 3pm? I'm making model at home other than that, I can't do board for it will be a waste of time as I prefer doing model first in case I do not have enough time to render perspectives, I can use my model pictures. I need to think of some things to do during that 3 hours. Maybe I just tell them what I've bought for my model making, then a sketch layout of my storyboard. LOL. What's the point. LOL LOL LOL -.-"

Since it is compulsory, I'll be the first to consult. Once done, I'll head home to do work. Meanwhile as I am free between 12pm to 3pm, I can do my Colour&Light report. Yes! That shall be the plan. Alright! Back to my journal. I left 5% and I'm done. Anyway, I've passed the time I've set previously! So disappointing! Its like 5+hours over schedule. -.-" Oh great...

I'll Forget About It

I'm not pissed or whatever, just that I should not hold on to it anymore, since I've made that decision. The reason for why I wanted to wait, hoping to patch things up was I think when I was in desperate time, I wished you were there. But when that point of time is over, I feel that I can handle things by myself again. For instance, when I was rushing for drawings, I did not think about you or anything else. The thought of loneliness did not seem to fall on me. I guess when I'm too free, I'll start to think far far away, which made me think of you and the past. All the "what if" and "if only".

Alright, I hope you know what I mean. I'm sorry again. I guess you're not actually thinking that much right? Anyway, I feel like the bad guy. Saying this at this moment, then changing it afterwards. Zzz.

Well, I'm doing my journal, page 7 now. Left about 15% then I'm done. However, I still need to take photo of my models at 1pm and 5pm, then they'll all be done. I'll be starting my poster at about 12pm which I think I'll be able to. I guess I won't do so much designing stuffs to save time. Maybe I'll just spend 3 hours or less doing that. I think I can complete Colour and Light assignment 1 by 7pm today. Yeah!

After dinner, I'll start Project 4, final model! I'm so excited, nervous, afraid and ahh! Hmm. I think I'll sleep at about 2am tonight. Shall wake up as early as possible for I'm going to Peace Center tomorrow to print 2 A2 posters(easier to take bus back) for submission at 10am in school! I wonder what time the shop opens...

P.S. I say, we are still friends! :D

Hahaha, Pathetic (See Below)

Ok. Whatever, I'm actually getting back on track again. Not feeling so emotional. I guess its because of period? Hahaha. Yeah, 6 July 10 is submission for technical drawings. Guess what! I'm not anxious at all. Something is wrong with me. I have completed site plan (shows surrounding and roof), first storey plan, 2 elevations. Currently editing sections.

For colour and light, I have finished model 6, I really hope that Paul doesn't say something which that something is something that some thinks it isn't helping. Ahh! He just comment on it, but doesn't tell you what you can do. Paul will go, "Huh~ Why your model become like that? What happen to those previous models you've made? Where's the xxx? You need to change some but not too much." Wow~ Thanks. -.-"

Ok. So if I still have the spare time, I might continue with colour and light journal. Anyway, my mother wants me to reborn my hair. It will be this Thursday! Ahh! The hair stylist coming to our house! Ahh! Ok. I realised I screamed a lot. Stop! Ahh! I just ahh! Screamed! Ahh! Hahahaha! Back to work. Byebye...

I Am Pathetic

Until now, I still cry...

Westilfe - I cry - lyrics

If time could go back, I'd rather not make that decision. But like what I've said, I have indeed learnt a lot both pros and cons. I guess I can't really express how I feel afterall, that's why I'm not telling anyone much about how I feel or whatever other than talking about school work. So compressed within me...

Post 51

Everything just seem so impossible to reach. The plans that I've made I thought I could complete them. Why do I not have that motivation and perseverance. Why do I not feel excited and enthusiastic in doing work like the past. This is so not me. Who am I now? Who? :(

It has been almost 8 weeks and this is the 51st post. I'm still waiting, this time rather patiently. But whenever I think about waiting, I'm always afraid that it'll all be in vain. I feel that I'm spending too much time on facebook, more than usual. Maybe because that is the only way of socialising? My MSN is having problems, the stupid Singnet is horrible. I can go DC for more than 10 times per day. Freaking annoying. I'm starting to slack more, watch television which I don't do that much in the past.

Frankly, the only thing I do on facebook is to scroll down the home page to see the recent news, hoping to see anything from you. I feel so much like a stalker. If I have comments, I would reply, if I have a deadline for my game, I'll visit that game. But the real motive aren't those.

I really don't know how to focus. I'm tired of school and everything.

I Vomited Today!

How great can this be. As usual I was alright for the first few hours of menses. Then came the common symptom... Zzz. So all the drama began in school, which I don't think I want to talk about in detail. However, if you're interested, you can always leave me a message. Hahahaha! Yup. So today will be a rest day for me. While I'm on my bed resting, my fingers will still be clicking though. :x I can't just lie on my bed doing nothing you see, so I'll be doing some AutoCAD drawings as well. Haha.

P.S. Ok, I'll give you more time, I guess you've seen my post. Haha. :)

So Tangled Like Never Before

I thought it will be a good ending to end everything all at once. I thought it will do good for the both of us. I thought things will go back to normal in time. I have no idea what I'm doing. Am I throwing myself into the river to drown and wanting to be rescued as well? I don't know where I'm heading. Everything is falling down on me, they're just too much for me to handle.

I do things without thinking, sorry if I've forced you again. I know I did, somehow threatening you to give an answer. Why am I such a person who dug my own grave, now wanting to be dug out. In the first place, I should not have asked for it. But if I hadn't done so, I wouldn't have learnt so much. The reason for patching is not only because I still love you and that I miss you, but I want to continue this relationship with a different perspective.

In the past, I know that this relationship will not work, but at that point of time, I was always medidating on the negative side, so I decided for the break up, which I've learnt to seek further and think about my future life. I know that in future, I'll be with someone else, most likely a christian. But I feel that this thing is seriously personal. After the few weeks of reflection and missing you, I began to understand that it is not too late to continue the relationship. There are still so many years ahead. Who knows what will happen. So why not let time lead us.

However, all I need is a yes or a no from you. This marks the new start or the finale.

P.S. It really disturbs me waiting patiently, because I just can't focus with school.