As Long As I Don't Signout

Ok. I still can post with my phone as long as I don't sign out. But i'm still in the middle of creating a new blog with "nbxf-leisure@hotmail.sg". You can add me on Google and youtube. Not msn or facebook. I'm only using this email as a personal thing. As I have mixed up the official email with all the junkie youtube and personal blogs. So wanting to sort which email for what kind of usage, I decided to delete all the stuffs and restart all over.

Talking about restart, I have really been restarting a lot of things lately. Mostly during FYP period. Haha. Yeah, anyway, catch me using that email I mentioned above. I will also be creating a blog that is rather official in a sense that its professional, ah, how should I put it... Erm, like a portfolio of stuffs I do to reach out to people who has common interest as I do, not all the emotional or whatever crap. I think it should be clear enough. So one blog for stupid stuffs, another which is more serious and formal. Yeah. That's the way. Haha.

Currently, lying down on my bed. The thought of what to do for FYP for tomorrow didn't come across my mind at all, almost forgot about FYP. I'm like taking it so lightly... I should sleep now. They'll be gone at 9:30am tomorrow. I shall be the Queen of this house for 4 days! Hahahahaha. :D

- Peace

Blog Permanantly Deleted

I wonder why doesn't the phone goes hand in hand with my desktop. Anyway, i've deleted my Google account, which means this blog and Youtube accounts are removed. I'll be creating again with a new email. So yeah. This will be my last post on this page. After 90 days it will be permanately removed. Alright. So ciao! :)

Stress-less FYP

I ain't stress, just busy with the things that I should do. CR, you're rushing us to do model too quickly in the first place. Now, what we have aren't strong concepts and not very related to the site. I shall do what Uncle said today and CR, I'll still do the hexagons. I hope both people's comments will tie up nicely together. :)

I am not going to do any work tonight. Time for me to rest a lot since I slept for only 2 and a half hours last night. Alright, won't be online for a week as long as I'm at home. Internet connection will be down as my family is changing from Singtel Plan to Starhub. I hope I won't need to do any research during the weekends.
Though I do not have internet connection, I do still have a phone that has data plan. So yeah. Not that bad after all I guess? For the coming week, there will be 4 days of peace as my family except my father and me are going Genting. Enjoying life while I am working hard for FYP. Hahaha.

Tomorrow will be a Friday. I guess I won't be going to school to do work. Seriously, this month's bus concession is really a waste for me. Most of the time I was staying at home. Whenever I need to go to school, my brother or father will drive me there, since I'll be carrying model. Whenever I am going home, my brother will fetch me if it was convenient. If they aren't free, I would just take a cab. Haven't hear the "di di" tap sound for a long time. Haha.

Alright, time for me to say goodnight!

- Peace

Blister On Fingers

Thanks to Chicken Rice's (CR) idea of hexagons, I had tos cut piece by piece and it takes about a hundred of the, to fill a simple A1 size model. Anyway, I was exaggerating. Yeah, so all the cutting caused me to have 4 blisters on my fingers...

CR wants form, but I don't have. I am not building new stuffs onto or into it! My idea is simply providing to the activities that i've proposed to solve the issues that I am more concerned. No form no form no form! Always form form form, I don't want give you~ Lol. I hope what i've done just now till 4:30am is alright for later's consultation...

Strange that i'm still not sleepy... Must be the music that I am listening to. Haha. Yeah, i'll just close my eyes and rest now. Gonna wake up in 2hrs to continue with the hexagon model... Anyway, i'm using my phone to post on my blog. So cool yo! Haha.

- PEACE

To Kai'en

She posted,

"actually ur rust and cracks are talking our the past and to the present. from past staying until now. from the rust leads you to the molecules and derive the hexagons..
2010-12-07 7:14 PM"

Yeah. But the missing part is the stress that I should have. Other than that, it feels like there are some missing parts here and there along the way, but what are those missing parts. Still, thanks anyway, it was helpful. Now I just need to execute the design and blah blah blah. Haha. Happily drinking coffee now, not intending to sleep tonight I guess.

- Peace

Going To Sleep Now!

I felt that there's no point for me to stay up the entire night. Its so irritating when the design is neither here nor there. Whenever I want to start doing, I'll get stuck. What's wrong! I don't know what I'm doing, don't know where to go, don't know what I should do, don't know everything about FYP. I have so many different processes that are not related, which in turn, no process at all...

After 6 or 7 weeks of FYP, I've changed a total of 5 different concepts. First, the timeline. Second, the watch mechanism. Third, the colourful model. Fourth, the molecules. Last, the hexagon. Ah! I kept having the feeling of retaking FYP.

No mood to do work, no mood to think (not even thinking at all), no mood to show lecturers what I've done. Uninspired, unprepared, messy, disorganised, I don't want to do FYP~ I hate this feeling of not thinking when I should be, not doing when I have to do, not enthusiastic and not motivated.

:(

It is 1:11am...

As Davin asked me about what I want for my Birthday, I suddenly remembered that I forgot what you have given me for my birthday last year. Did you give me? Did you give me not? I really don't remember. So hoping to find some clues, I went to take a look of my old live journal. I couldn't find the date, 20 Dec. I've stopped posting in November 2009. So went to my current blog and search for the very first post. Didn't expect it to be the saddest one of in the entire blog posts. So, read through the things I have posted during May 2010. The emotions came back when I was reading those posts, but as I am typing now, my emotion is quite calming. Have I really gotten over you? But your sudden text message a few weeks ago took me by surprise. Anyway, I just wish that we can still talk like friends. :)

Yeah, time to continue with my work. I am targeting not to sleep tonight! I will pull through the night! Hahaha. I hope... -.-

- Peace

FYP Progress

I'm almost done with site model. Still left with the 2 shelters that stretch across the station. Seriously, it is just plainly the model of the site without any design at all. So on Thursday night, I slept at 6am and to do the still-to-be completed site model. Woke up at 8am and didn't continue with the model. Yesterday was wasted as I was slacking and such. So I've made a point that I will have to do something for FYP today and tomorrow. Guess I won't be sleeping tonight.

Recently, or I should say, since the start of FYP, I haven't been very focus at all. Why? :(

Anyway, all the best for Monday's Scheme Review 02. Yeah, I hope my concept is clear enough...

- Peace

Have To Settle Down

I guess I won't be sleeping tonight yeah. Need to do a lot more than others so as to catch up with them. Hey, I restarted the entire thing remember? Haha. Yeah...

There's a problem with the way I articulate. "Bus Driver" said I am not romantic enough. The way I talked to him about my idea, doesn't seem convincing for him. He said I need to be more expressive. Though I seriously have a lot of facial expressions, but it is not the appearance. It is the verbal expression. But seriously, "Bus Driver", words don't come out from my mouth as easy as your's. Why not give me your brain and your mouth during presentation? Hahahaha. But I did learn something from him though...

Well, so it is time to settle down with what I have and what I am doing now. What I have done today is like the first or second week of FYP when it has already passed 6 weeks. So better pace up and catch up with my classmates!

Time to do work!

- Peace

Seriously, Just Damn It

I'm back to ground zero once again. My mind really isn't working. Not in the FYP mood at all. Everyone's doing so well, I'm there with nothing. Felt so much like a failure. Why is all this happening? This is like the worst time ever for my entire education years. So f**king irritating. I hate what I am doing and just hate it when I am doing for the sake of showing them something. I have no feel for the site, neither do I have any inspiration for it, I do foresee a bad outcome. This sucks very much really. Why things happen for FYP?

Slacking and Listening Today

I was the second last person to present today. Guess what, I was being pushed to tomorrow... Well, somehow expected anyway. This was like the first time I actually sit in to listen without doing my own stuffs, like hiding in the other corner of the studio, which I usually do. Heard of my friend's work, their design approach, etc... Each of their work is different and interesting.

Alright, it is time for me to sleep soon. Was watching Nigahiga's videos on YouTube.com just now after the critique and played Ka Ka Boom on Keyzin's iPad. Reached my personal record of 900+. Yeah. I know it is very low for majority, I admit. But, play DjMax with me la! HAHAHAHA!

Enough of crap already. Tomorrow, I'll be the first to present. I hope everything goes well, always have this unrest feel inside of me. Maybe because I changed my entire scheme and concept like 5 days ago? Scary huh, when everyone's working on their work for 7 weeks, I just started a new concept within a week... Well, no doubt that my stuffs will be lesser than the rest. Yeah...

Goodnight dudes.

- Peace

"Watch this if you're bored. It has Jay Park inside!"

NAUGHTY is better!

Yeah, on my way home, I bought 2 cans of NAUGHTY from the 7/11 at Tampines Interchange. It was so much cheaper than the Red Bull that I drank yesterday. The cola flavor tasted very nice. :)

I drank at 7pm and it is still keeping me awake now. I should be sleepy though, since I slept at 2am and woke up at 6am just now~ Haha.

Yeah~ Its Interim Critique tomorrow, I hope what I have done will not be rejected? Currently, doing model now. I am going to do 1:1000. Lazy do so big ah! Not enough materials also...

Last of all, my maid so annoying, she standing beside me in the room folding the clothes and falling asleep. Ah! Annoying! -.-

- Peace

Waking up at 6am

Yo my blog, tomorrow is a Sunday, but I need to wake up at 6am. Going for a site walk with Group Up Initiative (GUI). Yeah, will be meeting at 9:30am outside McDonalds of King Albert Park. Which is located near Clementi? I will be taking a bus there which is 67 from Tampines Interchange. Yes, TAMPINES! Expecting 66 to 70 bus stops..... I wonder if I should bring a jacket and seriously just sleep in the bus. I believe it will be more than an hour. Whatever, just hope it really worth the long long long trip...

Have been wasting some time today. Went to take a nap, watch Korean Variety Show "Running Man", surf the internet. Not very productive huh. Well, just start doing some work now... What time shall I sleep tonight? I'm lacking sleep this few days...

- Peace

Am I Lousy?

Recently, I haven't been able to stay awake for the entire night. The first night, I slept at 4am, consequently, 2AM "Bling, hidden meaning". LOL. I'm going to bed 2 hours earlier... Though I wake up at around 7am everyday, I find that I am getting old. Hahaha.

Okay, shall do my work now~

- Peace

Cell Group At My House!

Alright, I thought I can have some peace to do FYP... But well, they decided to come to our house for Cell Group. I just hope the kids won't come into the room and disturb me. Haha.

Yeah. Went to site today, got the things that I needed. Walked so much and nearly got myself lost... Right~ Hahaha.

Ok. Time to do work...

- Peace

Early Post

Yeah, went to sleep at 1am last night and woke up at 7:30am. I sucks when you are in the middle of dreaming, the alarm clock rings! It makes you so tired and annoyed. Haha. Alright, I shall start doing some work while waiting for my half boiled eggs. :)

Seriously, no mood or motivation to carry on FYP... It sucks like shit...

- Peace

What Is Critique Interim 1?

Things are getting more and more complex for me. Never used to be the case for me. I'm slacking so much and getting so crazy in school... Trying to hide something like FYP? I know I can't. I have to do it no matter what. But it is tiring and bored when there's no motivation at all. No! Negative! None!

Today's was supposed to be a Studio Work Day, turned out rather bitter. Didn't expect to consult my lecturer, so did not prepare a lot of stuffs to show. Anyway, while waiting for my turn to consult, which was like an hour later, I decided to find another lecturer from another class. Just want to ask him for comments and suggestions.

My own lecturer asked for me and my friend who went over to another class. This guy from the other class came over at the right time when my lecturer just ended her question. He told her that both of us are consulting his lecturer. Oh great... Don't really blame you, but wrong choice of word. Knowing that both the lecturers cannot work well together, which everyone knows, why use the word "consult". Trying to question her skills? Trying to provoke or create more problems? She was pissed after the consultation with everyone actually. Came in with her angry face and said sternly that she wants to see MODELS on Friday.

Sometimes, I wonder why do the 2 lecturers need to be like this. I believe he will give in to her. Being angry is also partially our class's fault. We were unable to show her what she wants all the time... But I have always agree that models should come in when there is design. When there is design, models can be done quickly and time would be used more wisely. Why rush us to do models? Show off how fast we are progressing to the other class? I don't like it and it makes everyone confused and lost for this tiny reason. "Show your model". It only kills us and we are forced to come out with designs that we don't like or just without a rationale...

I am seriously not going to school on Friday!

7am

It is time to do some work, like seriously... Felt that I've been dragging myself to do it. The motivation I used to have seem to have vanished into thin air. I'm left to just follow the flow...

- Peace

So Lazy To Do Work

Believe it or not, I actually felt that way. I don't feel like doing a lot of work for FYP. Don't feel like pushing myself to do better and produce more work. So ain't me huh? I know I need to do something, but I'm just lazy and bored to do it.

Took a nap just now and woke up at 4:30pm. Haven't done anything yet. Was surfing the net. Yeah. Seriously, no sign of anxiousness. That was once my drive, but I can't find it now~

Better do some work now to show tomorrow~

- Peace

Sketch Review 1 - Feedback

It was disorganized I believe? Everyone was doing their own stuffs, going to bookshop and canteen (including me). Haha. I really want to consult both of them at the same time... But I don't think it is possible. Anyway, I saw a shooting star, which in meteorologic term is called a "Meteoroid". Haha. I was very happy, and I made a wish when my mother told me to. How weird... I guessed she watched too many dramas? Didn't expect to see it when I was just standing at the window side, looking out at the sky and it suddenly flew past.

Alright, back to topic, so the feedbacks given was to explore further. The element that ties all the things I propose together. Need not be so literal, just ways to show the events with existing materials and environment. Well, I have planned a list of things that I want to do today. So yeah, going to start doing work now.

- Peace

Nothing On You Baby...

Yeah! I'm finally done with FYP! Shall stop for now and see how it goes on tomorrow! I've changed "Nothing On You" to the longer version. The song is just so addictive seriously. So yeah, time to get myself ready for the night. Didn't sleep much last night...

Just look at those abs! >.< Alright, goodbye!

- Peace

Hazy Sunday

Heys, good morning! Slept for 4 hours and now it is time for me to do FYP. I wonder if I can sleep "more" tonight? So yeah... I hope what I was and going to do will be relevant for Monday's review. Quite fun doing it actually. Enjoying ever bit of it. Wondering what I'm doing? I shan't tell you! Hahaha.

Alright, time to start working... Goodbye~

- Peace

N . M . F . N

No Model For Now... I finally understood how I spent my entire week. I was making model of scale 1:250. Did it so slowly and I do not even have any design at all. So, did not go to school today.

Seriously, I still don't know what my lecturer wants on Monday. I just do whatever I think is relevant? Yeah, what have I been doing today? Well, downloading Korean music, watch their MV. LOL. How efficient am I... Took 2 hours of nap, which was supposed to be an hour.

I am pretty bored now, so yeah, decided to post something on my blog. Have been posting stuffs quite frequently now. Maybe that's the power of EIR? Haha. Yup, back to work... I guess I won't be sleeping tonight, so most probably not going church service tomorrow? Frankly, that's my plan... Stay up the entire night, not going church tomorrow. Hahaha.

- Peace

Dear Nicole,

It is seriously time to do your Final Year Project now. You have been slacking for the entire week. Do you know that you have to show models, sketches and more on Monday? Nicole, please start doing your work and stop spending time to watch "We Got Married". Please try to cut down stalking on Jay Park. Start doing your work now!

From Nicole To Nicole...

LOL!

Yeah man, I don't really even know how I spent my week. I guess too much of EIR work? I do not feel any worry for Monday's Review, no sign of anxiousness or enthusiasm working on FYP. Why! FYP = Fail Your Project? Hahaha. Well, I guess rather than typing so much here, I better get some stuffs on the run.

- Peace

Last Day Of EIR

Finally, I can say goodbye to EIR. The 4 weeks long module, coming to school early in the morning to use the internet... But I did learn a lot. Skills for researching and evaluating sources.

Currently still in EIR class, but doing my own stuff. I wonder what do I want to pin-up for Monday's Review. Strangely, there is no news about the other class on what they are expected to be showing. This is something not so good when 2 classes are being divided. Anyway, I shall not bother so much about FYP yet. There isn't seem to be a need to worry for it, which is so weird...

I am going to meet Jieyu for tanning later! Hope the weather will continue to be so good and sunny! Alright, shall start cutting papers now!

- Peace

Tomorrow...

Gonna have EIR presentation, but I haven't prepare anything yet. Haven't seen the stuffs that I should be talking about. So yeah...

Anyway, have been surfing the net after getting this desktop. Wasted quite a lot of time doing irrelevant stuffs. I guess I'll be going to check out what I am presenting tomorrow, since I'm like the first one...

Had created a playlist for my blog and changed the title of my blog. Yeah, enjoy Jay Park's musics! Haha.

-Peace

New PC For Last Semester?

Yeah! Finally got a new desktop! Have been sick and tired of my very slow laptop... So yeah spent more 2000 bucks on it. 6GB Ram, with a free ram space to upgrade, 2GB graphic 64-bits, 1TB space, free HP 3-in1 printer, free wireless mouse and keyboard, 3 years warranty, free 1 year anti-virus, free cleaning kit. LOL. What can I ask for more! I am happy! Unfortunately, I can't explore this computer yet. Still have work to do for EIR and FYP! Zzz...

Alright. Toady was tiring... So better take a quick shower and start doing work now...

P.S. Many thanks to Davin! LOL

- Peace

Argh! Its Pissing Me Off!

I am still doing EIR work! Why can't I just hurry up and finish it!

I'm like 40% done with Dream Holiday, have yet to blog about it, update Portfolio Part 2, Bibliography in APA format, Conclusion, Second Life and more! Why why why! Argh! SO freaking irritated by EIR work! I just can't meet my own deadline!

Alright, back to reality. Had a lot of fun in school today, criticizing Sunny's favourite Mcfly. LOL! Then we were like trying out the "Ring Ding Dong" dance moves. All turned out to fail! But still, not as bad as Sunny's Mcfly. Haha. We like the songs, but just not as popular as SHINee seriously. Give up Sunny! SHINee's MV views on YouTube is like in millionSSS? Hahahaha.

Yeah, so going to do work now, 11:41pm... I am beginning to sleep at around 12am+ like everyday, which I find it very effective actually. I can sleep through the night and can really fall asleep quite quickly and deeply. (Thumbs Up)

- Peace

Early In The Morning

Alright, not quite early for me actually. As there was no class this morning, I decided to sleep for another 45 mins from which I usually wake up at 7am. So yeah, currently doing FYP work. Need to consult my lecturer later. I want to thank her for guiding me. I did not know I had something missing for my design stage. Thanks yeah!

Well, for the EIR work, I'm still not quite done with it yet. May be left with 50% or more! Argh! This is just so annoying... I fell asleep while typing and reading words yesterday night... Hahaha.

Yup, I am so excited now! Better start my FYP work before that adrenalin rush in me fades! Yeah!

Anyway, I am getting a new desktop tonight! Cool! :D

- Peace

EIR To Be Completed By Tonight!

Hi my blog,

I am here to say that I shall conquer EIR homework! No more procrastination! Just some things that I need to do:

1: Research on Dream Holiday
2: 2130 to 2230 play Second Life
3: Blog about Second Life
3: Update Bibliography (APA Format)
4: Edit Wiki Collaboration (Second Life Group Work)
5: Blog about Dream Holiday


I feel bad for I usually don't procrastinate, I guess, EIR is really too boring that I did something which I rarely do. Yeah. So, to end off and head to do work, here's a photoshoot of Jay Park who modelled for dENiZEN! Goodbye! :)


http://www.allkpop.com/2010/11/jay-parks-winter-photoshoot-for-denizen-hilarious-behind-the-scenes-video

Another Update Again!

Hi yall! I'm so influenced by the way Jay speaks and types. Whatever, it ain't a bad thing. So yeah, still doing EIR work. Left with "Dream Holiday", which we ought to search from a tourism site and choose a place where we want to visit. Oh freak! We need to visit in Second Life too! Crap... Anyway, I really hope that I can settle EIR work quickly and start my FYP!

Shall not procrastinate for EIR anymore. But still, quite tired of writing and commenting so much for each EIR practical that I become so bored with it... It feels like doing the same thing on different things.

Better hurry now...

For FYP, what do we need to show tomorrow?\

- Peace

So Long, Need Some Update

It's been so long. Many things have changed. People and the surrounding. I'm treasuring each time I spend with my friends, thinking back on the days we used to stay in school at level 5 to do work at night. Though it is 1/4 of Final Year Project, we all seem to have grown up, doing things on our own. Though the physical body is there, we hardly talk as much as we used to. I guess we are more focused now. However, for some other reasons, Sunny and Kian Leng still haven't grow up. Hahaha. Anyway, why am I talking about this? It sounds so emotional...

So yeah, currently toggling "Effective Internet Research" (EIR) and "Final Year Project" (FYP). Seriously, I should have taken "Appreciating Cinema"!
-PEACE

Alright, as the 3 weeks went, I picked up some things that I never used to. For instance, JAY PARK! Woo! He's so cool! Hahahahahaha! Other than that, I learnt how ineffective the classroom is at level 6 where there are dozens of Mac PC? What's wrong with those computers? I thought mine was horrible, but I guess not...

Have been thinking of getting a new desktop since I have a laptop which is quite lag actually... Wonder if I should get it...

Well, I guess I'm done with some updates here? I doubt many will frequent my blog. It feels so dead. Maybe I should make it a habit to post weekly... Hahaha.

- PEACE

Goodbye SIP, Hello FYP

Yup, did a sharing session about internship. As we were only given 10 minutes to talk, I really prepared a 10 minutes presentation. :)

Currently taking "Effective Internet Research (EIR)" and "EVD Major Project (FYP)". I am indeed very happy that I've gotten EIR because it is fun and not as stressful as compared to the other Cross Disciplinary Subjects (CDS).

I've missed today's lesson as I thought that it is starting on Wednesday as told in the email by our course manager. Fortunately, as there were just too few students this morning, my lecturer didn't do much. Other than that, I also got to know that many of my classmates are in the same class as me!

Fortunately enough for me again, I chanced upon my lecturer on the way to Mensa during lunch time. So I took the notes from her and got to know what we had to do. So before I move on to do my work, we got to know where our FYP site is.

Its at Tanjong Pagar KTM Railway Station. I wonder how to get there...

Anyway, I need to do my work now. So goodbye. :)

MC Today | Or Self Proclaim Leave?

This is my second MC during internship period. I slept at 3:30am, felt that I still don't have much time to complete a lot of things for my storyboard. Why should I exhibit a board with a quality which I feel that I should have done better, deposited 100 bucks, put in time and effort into this exhibition? That's why, in actual fact, I am taking a leave, but school doesn't allow, so I am on MC instead. I have too many things that I want to change for the storyboards. I want to meet my own expectation which I know I had failed to during Project4 submission.

It all depends entirely on individuals, what kind of goal you're setting for yourself for this exhibition. Juggling both SIP and ArchiFest aren't that easy. Wake up at 6am, go to work, reach home at 7pm, start ArchiFest work at 8:30pm till almost 1am everyday. Why not just take a day off.

I do wanted a clean record on attendance, but I don't want to affect my own exhibition, because is my exhibition where EVERYONE will be seeing it. I just believe that as long as I have positive attitude, hardworking during office hours, do what they say, etc, it can cover much on my MCs. Anyway, my team in RSP knows that we are busy on Archifest, they don't really require us to stay late everyday. I'm quite glad that I'm in that team.

I am talking to much. I'll get a MC later this afternoon when the day gets drier(A very good, cold and cloudy day to stay at home!). I am off to do AutoCAD drawings now. I'll be putting plan(one will do), elevations(4 sides) and detail sections(demarcate on plan, change the past detailing, which had so many mistakes!).

Bye bye! SHINee, Ring Ding Dong Ring Ding Dong... Haha. :D

Friday | Saturday

Had meeting on Friday with Archifesters, then reached home at 12am. While I was on my way home, Kai Jing told me that Eben, Pris, Qiu and Matt were outside now, wondered if I wanted to join, since EBEN is driving! Haha. I have never sat on any car driven by a friend who is of the same age as me before, quite interesting. So yeah, they picked me up at 12:30am.

Headed to Airport at TCC, chilled there till 2am? There it was, debating session between relationship and religion. Zzz. Anyway, I'm still surprised that I used that "BIG" word instead of the "small" word. Well, both words start with "L", which I guess you know which two words I'm referring to. That word gave me away.. Anyway, it has been a past, I'm moving on. Memories will indeed last forever.

To Matthew: The longer you drag, more memories will be made, the harder for you to give up.

To Eben: I agree to a certain extend of just loving and enjoying the moment of relationship while being young still. Anyway, a couple cannot be compared with another couple.

Apart from the topic above which you've read, I'll now talk about how I spent my Saturday! It wasn't exciting! But I just want to put in exclamation mark! Like this!!! I slept at 3:30am, woke up at 7:30am, did perspectives rendering, typed my word document for ArchiFest brochure, had lunch, watched Korean variety shows, napped, had dinner, did renderings again, watched Korean variety shows, did renderings again, snacked, listened and ended up watching the Korean Music Videos, slacking on my bed now. So freaking boring~

P.S. The songs you posted seem so emotional. Take care. :)

What To Do

Its a public holiday and its National Day! I really don't feel like doing storyboard today. Woke up at 8 this morning, tidied up Archifest stuffs so that I can send email to my set-up team later tonight. I've spent 3 hours watching Korean videos. "We Got Married" is really addictive.........

I've just showered, now sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of what to do later. I want to nap but I'm not tired. I want to do storyboard, but no mood. I want to watch TV, but no show interests me. I want to eat, but nothing much to snack on. I want to read! Yes! I can read! Hahahaha!

I think my mood is getting back. I shall finish up the entire book "This Is My Story" which I didn't manage to finish up that time, while lying down on the bed. After that, I'll nap, send email, have dinner then do my storyboard. I hope I stick to my plan...

P.S. I really need to keep myself occupied, if not I'll start thinking of you again... When will this ever stop?

60th Post

This entire week passed so quickly again. I remembered taking MC for Tuesday, doing contours on Thursday and Friday, drank on Friday at COSMO outside Wisma, met up my lecturer to discuss on Archifest yesterday, Saturday, then caught a movie SALT with Kai'en and Sihui. Went to church just now, I just feel like slacking...

So, I was clearing my hotmail inbox, cleared the junks, deleted whatever mails in the deleted folder. Clicking through the folders I've created, first was the "Important School Work" so I had all the mails on Portfolio Review, but I deleted them anyway. Next on the list was folder "Personal". I don't remember what it was, so I opened it up. To my surprise, they were emails from KT. The first email was when I went on a trip to Taiwan.


16 Dec 2008: Hey laopo. this is shit man. i don like to type in email ;x I CANT SLEEEP! UR FAULT LA! WHY U GO TAIWAN :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( anyway i had my medical checkup, i tink i dying soon lol.
day 1 is miserable. 7 more days to go. )))))): BYE BYE! <33

17 Dec 2008: 6 more days!!!!! :D <3 <3 <3

19 Dec 2008: laopo. i wanna talk to u badly )): i tink this will the last email le. i wont be online le. STILL GOT 4 DAYS )): FASTER COME BACK! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I was touched again by the email sent on 8 Jan 2009.

Alright, I'm going to take a half an hour nap. Then I'll do my storyboard and dinner at my sis-in-law's sister's chalet at downtown east. They just love chalets so much. Byebye. :)

Where Have I Been

I was on internship for the past 2 weeks. Too tired to even on my laptop every night when I reach home, that tells why I haven't been spending time updating my blog. So for the past 2 weeks, I'm so intensively drill with Photoshop that I can seriously do rendering without the tool palette on the screen, everything is short cut, short cut and short cut. Strangely, I find it fun and time seem to pass so quickly... Tomorrow will be the 3rd week of work, but I'm no longer doing renderings. I'm going to do topography drawing with AutoCAD, as briefed last Friday, it seem pretty tedious and time consuming, just like those renderings.

So did I have time to enjoy and have fun? Of course I do! The first week of Friday, we had Archifest meeting, had dinner at Marina Square foodcourt, after that went to a Bar at Esplanade for a drink. Crapped and chilled, but managed to hop on the last train back. Haha. Then 2 days ago, we had a gathering organised by Kai'en. Went to MOF for dinner at Bugis, initially wanted to chill at a PUB along the street, but it was packed and noisy. I think we only prefer BAR which is more quiet and peaceful than CLUBS or PUBS. (Well, I haven't been to Clubs or Pubs anyway, but just by the appearance also seeing and hearing what's on the inside through friends' photos, the places just feel so complicated)

1 August, my menses haven't visit me yet. Haha. Didn't go to church, so was my family because En Kai (new born nephew) cried for almost the entire night and Debby was having fever. How I spent my Sunday was watching Clash of the Titans again, half way through the book "This Is My Story" by Kasandra Kong, which I guess I'll finish it by tonight? Since its only 271 pages. Hahaha.

P.S. "Is your decision made on sand or cement? Only the test of time and situation will show it all. When the waves break the shore, what's on the sand will be gone with it. Once cement turns concrete, it stays regardless rain or shine." The decision to pursue happiness. :)

Another Sleepless Night Again?

Today was submission from 1500 to 1530. Slept 2 hrs from 6am to 8am only. Guess what, I have report submission tomorrow. I'm like 10% done only? I guess Paul wants to see a lot of stuffs. A report can't be so short. Zzz... It is also my presentation tomorrow. I'm first for the other class after the class ahead had presented. I need to prepare what I want to say. I think I'll take about 1 to 2 hrs of preparing script and rehearsing. -.-"

Hmm. I shall wear heels tomorrow! Not going to bring slipper! Or maybe? :x

P.S. I'm seriously so tired but I just won't give up! Because it will be over soon, I'll have the entire Firday to sleep! :D

Hello! I'm Going Crazy!

Alright! I don't know how I managed to pull through. I feel like I'm in a mission since Wednesday last week. Slept for 3 hrs on the night itself, 1hr 30mins on Thursday night, 2hrs on Friday night, 3hrs on Saturday night, 4hrs yesterday night and took 2 hrs of nap this afternoon. I only slept 15 hrs 30 mins throughout the 6 days. LOL! Really LOL! So what have I been doing? Doing Project 4 duh! Here's some pictures of my completed model! :)





Alright, I've also done a draft report this afternoon and sent over to Paul for comments already, waiting for him to reply my email. Currently, I'm doing storyboard for my Project. I've decided to change everything. Layout to the smallest detail. All the best to me! I shall drink coffeessssssssssssssss later~

P.S. Go fighting! Be happy! :D

Oh Great

Please note that for tomorrow and Friday (8/7 and 9/7), both Yah Li and myself will be available to run through with all of you, individually, on the following,

final model materials
final board layout and materials to include
part models (if any)
packaging of information

Please note and the consultation will be scheduled at level 6 studio and attendance is compulsory for both days.

I have appointment in the afternoon which means I'll be skipping consultation tomorrow. On Friday, I'll be consulting Paul the report draft in the morning at 9am. After that, what do I do from 12pm to 3pm? I'm making model at home other than that, I can't do board for it will be a waste of time as I prefer doing model first in case I do not have enough time to render perspectives, I can use my model pictures. I need to think of some things to do during that 3 hours. Maybe I just tell them what I've bought for my model making, then a sketch layout of my storyboard. LOL. What's the point. LOL LOL LOL -.-"

Since it is compulsory, I'll be the first to consult. Once done, I'll head home to do work. Meanwhile as I am free between 12pm to 3pm, I can do my Colour&Light report. Yes! That shall be the plan. Alright! Back to my journal. I left 5% and I'm done. Anyway, I've passed the time I've set previously! So disappointing! Its like 5+hours over schedule. -.-" Oh great...

I'll Forget About It

I'm not pissed or whatever, just that I should not hold on to it anymore, since I've made that decision. The reason for why I wanted to wait, hoping to patch things up was I think when I was in desperate time, I wished you were there. But when that point of time is over, I feel that I can handle things by myself again. For instance, when I was rushing for drawings, I did not think about you or anything else. The thought of loneliness did not seem to fall on me. I guess when I'm too free, I'll start to think far far away, which made me think of you and the past. All the "what if" and "if only".

Alright, I hope you know what I mean. I'm sorry again. I guess you're not actually thinking that much right? Anyway, I feel like the bad guy. Saying this at this moment, then changing it afterwards. Zzz.

Well, I'm doing my journal, page 7 now. Left about 15% then I'm done. However, I still need to take photo of my models at 1pm and 5pm, then they'll all be done. I'll be starting my poster at about 12pm which I think I'll be able to. I guess I won't do so much designing stuffs to save time. Maybe I'll just spend 3 hours or less doing that. I think I can complete Colour and Light assignment 1 by 7pm today. Yeah!

After dinner, I'll start Project 4, final model! I'm so excited, nervous, afraid and ahh! Hmm. I think I'll sleep at about 2am tonight. Shall wake up as early as possible for I'm going to Peace Center tomorrow to print 2 A2 posters(easier to take bus back) for submission at 10am in school! I wonder what time the shop opens...

P.S. I say, we are still friends! :D

Hahaha, Pathetic (See Below)

Ok. Whatever, I'm actually getting back on track again. Not feeling so emotional. I guess its because of period? Hahaha. Yeah, 6 July 10 is submission for technical drawings. Guess what! I'm not anxious at all. Something is wrong with me. I have completed site plan (shows surrounding and roof), first storey plan, 2 elevations. Currently editing sections.

For colour and light, I have finished model 6, I really hope that Paul doesn't say something which that something is something that some thinks it isn't helping. Ahh! He just comment on it, but doesn't tell you what you can do. Paul will go, "Huh~ Why your model become like that? What happen to those previous models you've made? Where's the xxx? You need to change some but not too much." Wow~ Thanks. -.-"

Ok. So if I still have the spare time, I might continue with colour and light journal. Anyway, my mother wants me to reborn my hair. It will be this Thursday! Ahh! The hair stylist coming to our house! Ahh! Ok. I realised I screamed a lot. Stop! Ahh! I just ahh! Screamed! Ahh! Hahahaha! Back to work. Byebye...

I Am Pathetic

Until now, I still cry...

Westilfe - I cry - lyrics

If time could go back, I'd rather not make that decision. But like what I've said, I have indeed learnt a lot both pros and cons. I guess I can't really express how I feel afterall, that's why I'm not telling anyone much about how I feel or whatever other than talking about school work. So compressed within me...

Post 51

Everything just seem so impossible to reach. The plans that I've made I thought I could complete them. Why do I not have that motivation and perseverance. Why do I not feel excited and enthusiastic in doing work like the past. This is so not me. Who am I now? Who? :(

It has been almost 8 weeks and this is the 51st post. I'm still waiting, this time rather patiently. But whenever I think about waiting, I'm always afraid that it'll all be in vain. I feel that I'm spending too much time on facebook, more than usual. Maybe because that is the only way of socialising? My MSN is having problems, the stupid Singnet is horrible. I can go DC for more than 10 times per day. Freaking annoying. I'm starting to slack more, watch television which I don't do that much in the past.

Frankly, the only thing I do on facebook is to scroll down the home page to see the recent news, hoping to see anything from you. I feel so much like a stalker. If I have comments, I would reply, if I have a deadline for my game, I'll visit that game. But the real motive aren't those.

I really don't know how to focus. I'm tired of school and everything.

I Vomited Today!

How great can this be. As usual I was alright for the first few hours of menses. Then came the common symptom... Zzz. So all the drama began in school, which I don't think I want to talk about in detail. However, if you're interested, you can always leave me a message. Hahahaha! Yup. So today will be a rest day for me. While I'm on my bed resting, my fingers will still be clicking though. :x I can't just lie on my bed doing nothing you see, so I'll be doing some AutoCAD drawings as well. Haha.

P.S. Ok, I'll give you more time, I guess you've seen my post. Haha. :)

So Tangled Like Never Before

I thought it will be a good ending to end everything all at once. I thought it will do good for the both of us. I thought things will go back to normal in time. I have no idea what I'm doing. Am I throwing myself into the river to drown and wanting to be rescued as well? I don't know where I'm heading. Everything is falling down on me, they're just too much for me to handle.

I do things without thinking, sorry if I've forced you again. I know I did, somehow threatening you to give an answer. Why am I such a person who dug my own grave, now wanting to be dug out. In the first place, I should not have asked for it. But if I hadn't done so, I wouldn't have learnt so much. The reason for patching is not only because I still love you and that I miss you, but I want to continue this relationship with a different perspective.

In the past, I know that this relationship will not work, but at that point of time, I was always medidating on the negative side, so I decided for the break up, which I've learnt to seek further and think about my future life. I know that in future, I'll be with someone else, most likely a christian. But I feel that this thing is seriously personal. After the few weeks of reflection and missing you, I began to understand that it is not too late to continue the relationship. There are still so many years ahead. Who knows what will happen. So why not let time lead us.

However, all I need is a yes or a no from you. This marks the new start or the finale.

P.S. It really disturbs me waiting patiently, because I just can't focus with school.

I Need The Answer

I really need the answer, because it is killing me inside-out. I feel so compressed, so suffocated and really on the edge of giving up. Yes and it will be a happy ending, back on track like the past. No and I'll try to move on, I'll vanish totally, erase everything about you cause I might go crazy if there's any bit of memory of you. I can't take it anymore. Please give me an answer for me to move on either both ways.

What A Day

What I did today is not planned. After class, I went for lunch with Davin. Ate at Sushi Tei, I ordered as usual, garlic fried rice(main dish $8) and add on 3 slices of salmon and chawanmushi(side dish +$5.80). I think the lunch meal quite worth it. Haha. Then ordered mango passion juice.

Ok after that, we went to Uniclo but the bottom he wanted wasn't there, too bad, so we left. Headed to the money changers. They're buying at 1.4! Lower pleeeeeeease... So I didn't change. :x

After that, we suddenly felt like watching Toy Story 3. So bought the 1:30pm tickets at 1:45pm. Yeah, we were 15mins late. Haha. After movie, before we go home, we shopped at FOX for some time. I guess more than 15mins. I've bought a cute T-shirt, shorts and a pair of shoes for my nephew! Hahahaha. They were having sales, so I've spent a total of $37 for 3 items. :)

Yup. After that, we really headed home. Before writing this post, I was cutting paper for C&L. I kept dozing off... Then suddenly, my sis-in-law called me to ask what I want to have for dinner as they're at Whitesands. I woke up immediately and ordered Subway, which I wanted to eat today other than Sushi Tei! :D So much fulfillment within a day.

But sadly, not much achievements for school work. I've not yet planned what I want to do daily, which I used to. I'm still doing work so slowly and my brain is as usual, so lost, unmotivated, uninspired and so stressed. :(

P.S. Can you give me a reply soon?

Waiting...

I'm waiting for an answer that will either make me extremely happy or extremely sad. I don't know what's got into me when you're not with me. I really can't do it alone. It is affecting me so much, both school work and life. I don't like to look happy when inside of me keeps thinking of you and feeling sad. I really need you back for I cannot go on this way. It just isn't me.

I guess I've made a wrong mistake in the past by letting go. But I didn't regret for I've learnt a lot. What's happening now is I hope to patch things up. It has all been changed unlike the past, the perspective of things will be different from now.

Need To Plan My Work!

Today I'll need to complete the skeleton work of my storyboard. I MUST, even if I am not sleeping tonight. Haha. But I guess I'll doze off during preaching the next day. Please forgive me. It is better than not attending yeah. (Thumbs up) Hahaha.

Tomorrow I'll take 20 mins power nap after service and lunch. Most likely reach home at about 2pm. After the power nap, I'll need to complete 2 models for colour and light module. If I have the aedditional time, I'll add in text for storyboard.

From Monday onwards till submission, I'll keep doing AutoCAD drawings. Things to do: Assign drawings to different layers according to CP83 standard, lineweight whether the object is cut, furthest or needs hatching, correct annotation and dimension with fixed text height and lineweight, linetype if it is removed, proposed, existing, overhead or hidding below a layer, plot style and title block. Cool~ I am targeting to generate about 4-5 plans, 4 elevations, 3-4 sections, 5-6 detailing. All the best for me!

P.S. I feel like asking...

Life & Work Conflict

I don't know why, but is there this curse that is (for what I know) affecting the EVD year 3 people? Either you're very happy or you're very sad. The difference is so vast that almost nothing can salvage it. Other than some of my friends, I am also a victim. The brain is confused yet with some understanding of something which sometimes that something is difficult to comprehend. For what I am going to say, you want support me or object to it. But please don't take it too personal and just keep it to yourself.

I have been struggling, if you were to read all my previous posts. Breaking up takes courage especially when you really love that person. I thought I was able to get over it very quickly but I realise that I can't, for I had never felt so heartbroken before. I know my school work has been affected. During the singlehood days, I kept encouraging myself that I will make it. However, it only last for a short while. I have been wondering, seeking a better solution, which I felt that the only solution was to go back. Go back in a sense that I have the companion I used to have, the person I loved and still loving, he whom I'll talk about everything to, he who is able to make me exceed my limit with school work.

I know I have friends, but they just aren't him who I have feelings for. I am thinking of patching things up again. Definitely, everything will be different. But at least I know I'll be happier than my current situation.

P.S. Sometimes what you've planned may not last forever, I guess I really need to let time decide...

Confusion Sets In

The mind without a thought, a soul without a body, a heart without a feeling and a spirit without life. I guess that's me now. I can make myself happy, but they don't seem to last. I can make myself hardworking, but it only make it for the first half. I can concentrate, but only last for a few seconds. I'm totally mixed up. Confused, annoyed, irritated, vexed with whatever that comes to me and with what I'm doing. That's just not me. I feel like grabbing you off my mind never to remember a single thing about you. But, its impossible.

About the previous post, I need to clarify some things. I fear to be alone because I know I cannot cope with work all by myself. Nothing else.

What Have I Been Doing?

Is it my brain or my heart that is making me unlike myself? It has been about 6 weeks now, my brain is either thinking of nothing or just thinking about you. Why am I no longer thinking about school work like how I used to in the past. Every time I'm free during bus journey, about to sleep, bathing or eating, I would have ideas for my work and that I'll think further if the idea would work. But now, I've lost that brain thing, I'm seriously not thinking at all or just thinking about you. Why is it so difficult. I can appear as if I'm alright everyday, but it is obvious to see the different work I produce compared to the past. I know there are people helping me, I'm trying too and after all, I'm still a human.

I don't want to give false hope. I don't like how people look at us (Noel and me), because to be frank, I still have feelings for KT which I know it has to fade. There is just no way I'll get on a relationship. I really thank you, Noel, for being there, but I always treat you as a good friend, like a brother. I really need to let you know that there's no chance at all. I appreciate what you've done for me. But everything is just too much for me to handle because you're doing too much for me. I fear to reject because I'm afraid to be alone.

P.S. My brain is still in the midst of turbulence.

Annoying!

Other than being annoyed by the fact that all the photos are gone, there are also problems with my documents. I'm still using Window Vista, where I can't open by clicking for instance, picture/music/documents from start button. When I click on the owner folder, there's always this window pop up that states location unavailable and it could have been moved to other location, which I have no idea where in this laptop/hard disk it is located. Frustrating, but I hope that as long as the important stuffs don't go missing, it doesn't really matter if the pop up appears all the time. Annoying... Didn't do any work today. Haha. Alright, tomorrow will be the start of school, lesson at 9am, Project 4 ends at 6pm. Everyday will be like this for 4 weeks. Yup. Goodnight. :)

Sad With A Bit Of Gladness

I deleted all the photos that I've accumulated since the first day I've recieved the camera. Everything is gone. Gone for good! How it happened was I copied the owner's folder into my hard disk which I didn't know that the folder's location is from desktop. Which means if I delete files from my own laptop, that same file will also be deleted inside the hard disk. They are the same and deletion is permenant! So I transferred the pictures happily into the hard disk so that I can free up some space in my laptop as I seldom view the pictures. Unfortunately and unknowingly, I've deleted ALL THE PHOTOS. It is not about the pictures, but the memories. I have copyri9ghts, family, friends and his. All is gone, gone for good. I'm definitely sad, but I think I should not dwell on it for too long. After all it can't be undone. However, I do feel a little glad that the past VISUALS have been washed away so that I can start afresh again and for my own good. Well, I guess this is it. There's no way I can turn back though it is really a pity, like a slight pinch in the heart. I'm semi-alright, but will get over it soon. Like I've always said, "I'm a human". Haha.

Holiday Is Over!

I'm missing in blog-tion for 5 weekdays as I was in school from 9am to 9:30pm daily doing school work. What a life man! I managed to finish my ArchiCAD modeling and also translated the models to many plans. Over the 2 weeks when school starts I'll be doing a lot of 2D AutoCAD drawings, where CP83 has to be included. I'll be taking another module, colour and light as well.

Yup. So on the last day of work, which was Friday, I went on a yacht with my family. We stayed over for a night and left the place at around 9am. I could still feel my body moving with the wave. Hahahaha. The yacht is super cool! It is able to carry a capacity of 20 people. It has 4 rooms, 3 toilets, a big living room, indoor and outdoor dinning area, kitchen, upper deck, front decking, back decking(platform can be lowered for swimming). Wonder how much is it? The uncle said from 4pm to 11pm, it will cost nearly 4500+ bucks. It costs 700 bucks for an hour and minimum 2 hours. Imagine overnight. Hahaha. However, fortunately enough, we did not pay a single cent as that uncle is my dad's good friend! Hahaha! So had dinner on board, went to fish secretly(caught nothing), talked, watched DVD, bathed, shet, basically, did the normal things when we're at home.

At around 9am the next morning, we left and then went to people's park for breakfast and after sending the family home, my brother and me went to fish at Bedok Jetty. I managed to catch a fish but my brother caught 5. -.-" After nearly about 2 hours standing under the sun fishing, we reached Carl's Junior at about 1:30pm. So we were fishing at noon, no wonder my face and arms are red. Haha. We bought back lunch and after the meal, we went down to wash the car. Too bad for my dad, as he drove to his work place after the yacht trip, so we only cleaned my brother's car. Haha. I'm currently uploading the images on facebook. :)

P.S. Should I play L4D2 at lan shop tomorrow? I've NEVER been to a lan shop. HAHA!

What To Do For Holiday?

Indeed, tomorrow is holiday! Guess what I'm going to do! It is only a week, so I am going to do ArchiCAD modeling for my work from Monday to Friday. If I manage to finish before time, I'll start AutoCAD drawings, especially in CP83 format. Hohoho! What a wonderful holiday! Yeah~ 8 weeks had passed and Project 4 is still on going, so once the holiday is over, I'll be taking an additional module together with Project 4, which I'm afraid that I don't have much time to balance both modules, Project 4 final submission as well as Colour and Light(Elective). However, I'm pretty glad that my elective is taught by Paul, who is teaching our course most of the time. He is sarcastic, but I don't mind, since I am someone who will not be bothered that much, easy coming, easy going, just be optimistic. Haha. Yup, I guess I won't have much time to enjoy as usual.

Right after Project 4 and Colour and Light, I'll have Saturday and Sunday to rest, maybe a day to shop for clothes for SIP! Yes! 19th of July, the first day of work. Had to report at 8:15am and end at 5:30pm. I usually wake up 7am even if there's no school! I'll have to wake up at 6am daily during SIP...... However, this isn't really a sad thing, because I know that I'll learn something, I'm seriously looking forward to it and I really want to show those people what I can do, thought not as good as them, I want to let them know that I'm willing to learn! :D I'm so excited now! Haha.

Just to update Friday, Saturday and today, I had bought a SEAGATE 500GB harddisk during IT Show at Suntec for $119. Then spent $60 on 2 tank tops (black & white, which I don't have), an inner tube, shoes, blouse and a T-shirt on Saturday then went to ROJAK organised by FARM (exhibition firm) at Emily Hill to listen to 10 presenters talk about their work till 11pm. -.-" So as usual, went to church this morning which was awesome! Then went to Raffles Place for lunch (something like Marchee, which I don't know how to spell). So my family had a card each, so ordered and the person tap in the cost into the card, blah blah blah. Yup, that's about it.

Ok. So I'm going to start some re-conceptualization based on the comments given during Interim so that I'll start my work immediately tomorrow. I will do it! I have the confidence! I'm going to take out what I've said previously that I'll not do well for Project 4, because I'm back! I'll just do it! Hmm. I think I can do some SketchUp since I don't have ArchiCAD software in my laptop. :D

P.S. 19th July, Changi uhh! Hahaha. :)

Tomorrow's Interim!

Ok. I have 4 plans, 1 elevation (editing now) and 4 sections with detailing (1 of the section I'm going to start later). Then I have 4 mock models, 1 final mock model, 1 A1 storyboard to show. Alright. I think I really have a lot. Need to do some planning here to remind myself.

1: Edit elevation drawing (Lineweight, Annotation, Dimension)

2: Draw one more section with detailing (Lineweight, Annotation, Dimension)

3: Storyboard layout (Business like, simple and neat because I want to sleep tonight!)

So I'm going to do my work now! Will reach school by 10:30am to print and mount! Cheering for myself and whoever is busy!

P.S. You're sailing or on mission now? Hahaha.

Eating Subway Biscuits!

Hello! I'm almost done with my first storey plan. Have started second, third and roof plan. Seriously, there are a lot more editing to do for those 3 plans which I'll be doing today. Other than plans, I'm also doing more detailed sections. For the elevation, I don't really like it. :x

Not only did the Subway biscuits make me happy, I'm glad that my interim is on Firday! This means I'm most likely able to sleep more tonight! Yeah! Good bye! Busy with work! :D

12am Soon

So I guess I'll be sleeping late or maybe not even sleeping tonight to do a 2nd-storey plan, some detailing and edit my 1st-storey, 3rd-storey and roof plans. I hope I can finish those by 9am tomorrow. It is my target for AutoCAD drawings.

I didn't post yesterday as I was busy doing my model till 2 plus in the morning then woke up at 6am to continue with the model which I managed to complete by 8:45am. I was also fortunate enough that my brother and the kids were going IKEA for breakfast, that meant that I do not have to hire a cab to go to school. Since they offered to send me and it is on the way, why not bring all my 4 mock models to school as Thursday's interim requires those. I still have some additional models that I forgot to bring just now. I guess I'll bring them on Thursday.

I'll be staying at home to do work tomorrow but I might be going to school to test print the drawings which I thought it was rather troublesome. :x Ok. Shall start my work now. Going to take in some caffeine to keep me awake. Bye... :)

P.S. You're so busy uhh. Haha. :)

Swing The Mood

I was sad yesterday, remember? I am in a ok situation this morning, I was happy in the afternoon. I'm so happy now! Because you talk to me in MSN. Hahaha. I thought you will not read my blog, but now the feeling of "are you reading my blog? I hope you do, but I can't confirm is it true?" is now gone! I used to tell you whatever I like/dislike, now I can only tell everything in my blog. So it really brings me assurance adn a peace of mind that I know that you know. I hope we'll talk like friends like just now again. :)

P.S. At least you're not avoiding me uh. :D

How?

How can you keep it so quietly and calmly. I feel like a failure as I pour out my emotions all the time in this blog. I keep mentioning about the past, how I feel and what I was thinking of, almost everyday. How can you do it alone, without showing signs of whatever. I wished I could just let it go and stop thinking about it. I am not used to the life now which I'm afraid that I might take a very long time to adjust my lifestyle without you. I know for sure that I'll not do well for Project 4. But I'm glad that I had 3 months of Internship after that. I hope that 3 months will be long enough for me to get back on track.

P.S. I want to end the misery of not being able to get use to my current state soon.

周杰倫 - 紅樓夢中

I don't like this feeling, the feeling of thinking back. This used to be the ring tone I've set in my phone when you first went for NS. Because of the different ring tone set for your contact, when it rings, I know that it is you and I will be so happy that I'll rush towards the phone to pick up. I've just removed that ring tone, since my phone's speaker is damaged and I doubt you'll call me. I really miss those days...

P.S. Still using the old number? :)

The Bridge

I was looking at the bridge from my room. The street lights have always been so glaring during the night when I'm lying down on my bed. I remembered that bridge that you used to walk so frequently during your school days. You would call or text me when you're walking on it and I would just stand near the window looking at you until the trees block you away.

My mother came into my room this afternoon. She looked out of the window, and she remembered you walking on the bridge as she watched with me that very day. She told me that I don't have to stand there and look at you and that I don't have to wait for you anymore. Well, they are memories after all. Whenever I look at the bridge, I'll think of you.

P.S. Still trying to move on... :)

I Lost 3KG! :(((

I haven't been weighing myself for a few months. The last weight I recalled was 45KG. I'm now 42KG! I wanted to gain weight, but ended up losing 3KG and so easily.

I didn't sleep well last night. I went down my bed a few times at about 12:30am because I was coughing. At around 5am the 2 pink pills that I've took has lost effect on me. My backache was killing me that I went down my bed to pop one, went up and decided to go to the toilet, so came down again. Soon, I vomited, but I had an empty stomach, so nothing came out. As I was vomiting, my whole body went weak and was cold. I thought to myself even if I faint, I can't faint in the toilet with the door locked. So I just stood up and breathe deeply. After that, my mother put medicated oil on my back, then I went back to my bed, still fidgeting then finally fell asleep. Woke up at 8:15am today.

It is going to be noon soon, I've finished my 3 plans finally. It was supposed to be yesterday's target. Hahaha. Alright. I'm feeling like normal now, no symptoms or discomfort. So shall do work already! :)

Ahh! Period!

Yeah... So there it comes, I'll have to struggle through the night again. Fortunately, I only have backaches which only last for a day. I'll be sleepy but can't sleep well tonight. I hope the 2 pink pills that I've taken will take effect soon. Really moody now... Hahaha. I always like to contradict my mood. Alright, so I was and still doing plan. I guess I'll do elevation tomorrow. Then section on Saturday. Won't be going school tomorrow as well, so I'll see my studio on Monday. Okay. Going up my bed to lie down and do work.

P.S. I was and still thinking of you, maybe because I feel uncomfortable now.

Buzzy Bussy

Week Planner:

Wednesday - Plans drawing

Thursday - Elevations drawing

Friday - Section drawings

Which I suddenly think that I won't be able to finish elevations or sections in one day. Should I stay overnight? NO WAY! Hahahaha. If there isn't a need to, I won't. I shall sleep at 11pm every night and wake up at 7am.


Ok. So for SIP, I'm posted to RSP Architect at Scotts Rd. 8:15am to report and ends at 5:30pm. Oh no! I'll have to wake up at 6am, leave house at 6:45am. Take bus to Tampines MRT station then to City Hall then to Orchard every weekday! Ahhh! So crowded! What to wear what to wear what to wear! Ahhh! >.<

...REST IN PEACE... Hahahaha. Must be steady, no worries. :) It is 10:45pm now, going to wash up then prepare to sleep! Goodnight!

Farewell To May

So had consultation today, the comments given weren't bad. Just to summarise my thoughts here, the canopy has to flow down instead of penetrating into the HDB. The frosted roof currently looks like a piece of plane covering the top, so maybe, have some frosted glass on some pockets of the openings. After all, they'll still maintain what I wanted, the silhouette feel. For the supporting elements, I was suggested to use trusses. Yup. I guess I'll bring the same but edited model for Interim 01. I'll touch up the model today and do the drawings tomorrow at 7am! Yes! 7am! I'm gonna wake up at 6:30am. :)

"Don't be jealous of the others, but be proud of what they do not have that is in you." - I'm going to have birdnest soup soon. Hahahaha.

P.S. I am happy because I do not gossip on others and I don't dislike anyone. I pity those who are always in bad mood because they just like to pick on that person. What's the point? So, the moral of this paragraph is to be optimistic and be grateful in all ways, you'll live a better life than those who are always unhappy. Smiles! :D

Instant Noodles For Breakfast

There isn't bread in the house and I can't eat biscuits as I have an ulcer in my throat, so I've cooked noodles. :)

40 minutes to go before I bathe and prepare for school. I've just edited somethings in my previous AutoCAD drawing, after that I still feel that there isn't a point since my new model really look different from the drawing. I'll take a cab to school at 9:30am, then go to the library to borrow some books for case study. Most probably buy back lunch then draw my current model.

But pin-up is at 3pm. -.-"

Friday A Busy Day

I woke up at 3am knowing that I wasn't feeling too well. Took my temperature, it was 38 degrees Celsius. So I ate 2 Extra Strong Panadols then went back to sleep. I woke up at around 7am and I'm feeling so much better already. So went to meet my competition group at 9am at Burger King, only Sihui and me were on time. Bought BK breakfast, the one I always eat! Ended the meeting at noon, exactly. Went to PAGE ONE sales after that at Kakit Bukit. It was so warm. -.-" Only a book caught my attention. Not architectural type, but cooking recipe. Haha. I bought this very nice Spaghetti book, which has 130 recipes. The layout of the contents is so interesting and comprehensive. It cost $11.90 after 30% discount. :)

So went home after that and now I'm waiting for my pizza to be ready. Lunch at 4:15pm... Anyway, there's mold at the bottom of the Mozzarella cheese! I had to throw the whole packet away. What a waste. After lunch, I'll be doing my Project 4. May inspiration and excitement come back to me! Be surprised! Expect the unexpected me again! HAHAHA!

P.S. I'll not let it affect my school work!

Whole Body Aching...

Yesterday's Pulau Ubin trip was just so fun! Completed almost 3/4 of the island. I really can't wait to go during the low tide season in October! Though we were really sticky and dirty, but it was worth the whole journey. Really saw a lot and experienced a lot. After the 5 hours plus of cycling up and down hill, I was totally dead... My butt hurts sitting on the bicycle seat! So do most people. Haha. After reaching home, I bathed and did my model. Imagine that. We had to do it for tomorrow's pin-up. This is the life of a designer. Sleepless nights, buying super expensive materials from ArtFriend, printing super expensive storyboards and spending money to take cab most of the time. For personal study, we do buy books that cost up to a 100bucks for a book. Design courses really cost a lot. It is different from buying textbooks, sometimes passing down from seniors to juniors. It is really a bid investment. Think twice whether you are willing to stay up the entire night or nights, spending more than 200 a month just for submission then that's it, over. Hahaha. It is never easy to be in Design School.

I'm scarying you but its real!

Yup. So went to school in the morning, reached before 9am. Was drawing my design and then poof! 12pm and I am done. So pin-up at 3pm, reviewed and given comments by the lecturers. I consulted Malcolm before the pin-up, he really taught me and gave me tips on how to rationalize the design. Consulted my peers and they gave me ideas too. The ideas given really helped to strengthen my design proposal. I'm happy. However, got to do model and drawings over the weekend again. Anyway, will be meeting the competition group for "Just Bin It" tomorrow morning at 9am at Burger King. I miss the breakfast! We used to eat at Whitesands. Haha.

After school, we left for Tampines 1 for dinner. Had Subway, Cold Cut Trio, as usual. Then headed to Century Square NTUC Finest. I bought Portobello and instant Pizza. I shall not have to worry for Saturday's and this coming Monday's breakfast! Oh man... I really like how we used to shop in NTUC. Like aunty and uncle. Haha.

It is 9:30pm now, I shall do some work before sleeping at 11pm then waking up at 7am tomorrow! Healthy healthy! :) I guess I'll be doing the planting of existing trees. Hahahaha! I really need my inspiration and motivation back please. I feel that I am no longer thinking. I used to be so excited in doing a lot, seriously, a lot and show it to my lecturers. I used to be super hardworking, producing extra informations or whatever. However, I'm so toned down now. What's happening to me. I want and I need that spark that keeps me going strong, with full of ideas and able to rationale my design. Where have they been. I'm doing what the lecturers say. I want to have my own touch to my design. When will I find it again?

P.S. Am I scarying you away or too annoying?

What What What?

I don't like the feeling of doing something which I know is not final but I just had to do it because of submission. The design is not there yet, I don't like it and there will be changes. What's the point of drawing those tedious lines, creating those troublesome layers, cracking the brain to do plan, section and elevation and finally, printing out. It seems like doing the design on soft copy, then making models by copying from those drawings, and what if the model looks awful. I just don't like it, but I have to do it. Freaking irritating. -.-"

Right! I can't open my drawings! I shall reach at 8:20am, buy breakfast and reach studio at 8:30am on Thursday. Hope I've got enough time to do. Shall do my model tomorrow then.

P.S. I keep thinking of you... :|

Write The Future?

Hmm. Maybe plans for future. Who can predict what happens in future. Hahaha. :)

I opened my fridge just now, saw the spagetti and mozerella cheese still in there. The mozerella is expiring soon! I think I'm buying pizza someday so I can add additional chesse on top of it. Yes! For breakfast! :D

Oh. I also need to buy mushrooms, maybe prawns to make Aglio Olio. You want? Hahaha. Too bad. :x Anyway, during our first Aglio Olio attempt, it was torturous for me, because I didn't wear glove when I was cutting the chillies! I remembered complaining so much. But you comforted me and didn't get irritated by me. Hahaha. The second attempt was better. It really proves that practice makes perfect. :)

I'm thinking of going NTUC soon... :)

P.S. If we were still together, today will be our 17th months together.

Boring day...

So it was, Monday, I was freaking bored from 8am to 11am that I had decided to watch movie online. "Dear John" is so touching, good storyline and really can't keep my ears and eyes off the screen. So I was eating bee hoon(lunch) while watching. Haha. So went to bathe at 1pm. Left house at 1:50pm. Reached school at 2:40pm. Slacked till 3pm for class.

We did CP83 in AutoCAD drawings. Ivoly, Meimei and me were having fun doing the coding together. We also learnt the actual way of doing title block. So after lesson, I rushed out of school as my family were waiting for me at the drop-off point. We went downtown for dinner instead of Vivocity. Its alright. :)

As we left school and headed for Ehub, we went passed IKEA which I thought of how we used to go there for breakfast in the morning on Saturdays/Sundays. Then we drove passed the bus stop where we used to alight when we bought a lot of things from GIANT, on the right, was where you lived.

We headed home after we had sushi for dinner and the 2 kids got their train ride.

I'm back home, bathed and afresh to start doing AutoCAD drawings. Shall sleep at 11pm tonight and wake up at 7am tomorrow. While I'm here typing and going to do work, I leave your MSN window open. I really don't understand why I'm doing it. But as long as I see that you're online, I'm happy enough. Even if you're not online, I won't feel bad. :)

Alright! Hope to see you soon! Yeah? :)

Yea Yea I Know

Just to let anyone know, you are yourself, I am myself. (DUH) It depends on the individual. I can say whatever thing God has done for me and to me. But it all depends on how much you believe. It is a very personal encounter and experience. People might think that the person is crazy to give up a million dollar business to become an evangelist who goes on the street telling people about God. People might feel annoyed by Christians who call them 24/7 about God and asking him/her to go for this service, that meeting, this church event. Everyone is different. The key lies in you, whether you believe it or not, sometimes half.

I was someone who received salvation from God at the age of 11 because of my brother. He told me about Jesus who is just like a normal man sent by God. He came to die on the cross, bearing all our sins. He described about how Jesus bore the whips and the crown of thorns, how He was nailed onto the cross. I imagined it and was frightened that I cried. That was how I received my salvation.

When I was in lower Sec, I followed this lady, Christine, who led me to Generations. I was there for 2 years, changed to another zone. Got to know some new comers and had a crush with him. After breaking up, I went to another zone which has my Sec school's cell. When I'm 15, I met the wrong kind of friends. Back slided and haven't been going to church until I came to poly. Went back a few times, dislike the people. Had the longest relationship which lasted 1 year, 4 months and 12 days. Out of love, we broke up for I know it is time to go back to God. This time, I really believe in who He is and His faithfulness that never fails me. To me, it is the journey that opened my eyes to see who He really is, therefore, I trust in Him.

I've Got Joy And Peace!

Basketball cancelled? It is ALRIGHT! Hahahaha. Didn't know you read my blog. Maybe recently, AFTER SO LONG! Tsk!

So went to church this morning. So good and fresh! I can't wait for more church service! I think my perspective for going to church has changed. In the past, I thought it was a routine, I had to go.

After knowing some friends, Sundays turned out to be an outing day that I no longer head to church but to other places shopping or whatever. Soon, poly started, I began to start anew again. I did go back a couple of times in the past, but felt unwelcome. It was the generation people that do not seem to know me. I always thought that they were terrible Christians that are so good to you when you first came, after back sliding and returning, they pretend they do not know you.

After the break up with him, I began to visit the church regularly. It is not the people that I am going for. It is for what I believe is real and true. To me, He is forever faithful, the beginning and the end. No matter how difficult things are now, He is always there. I realised all this while, from the start when I back slided from God, He has been creating my testimony. I am a human, not a perfect christian, but it is possible to seek holiness and righteousness. (I'm not psychotic okay) I am glad that I returned to Him, that I chosed to give up all and follow Him again. Because I know that all the things of the earth will die and be gone, but the eternal life in Heaven is awaiting for me. (I'm not crazy) The word of God has been written for they are the true living word of God. To make it simple, they are like the journal of what God had done. It had been carried out and they are real. I am happy to be saved from hell, happy because His grace, His love, His peace, His joy, His faithfulness are everlasting. I've got the peace of mind, the joy of the Lord is my strength! Do you have any? Hahaha. :D

Yes Ming Kuang!

It has been the second week. The boys are playing basketball now, another 70 minutes before lights off. I had dinner at home and was watching 7pm show on channel 8. After the 1 hour show, I went to my room, thinking of the past again. I sat down below the window, where we used to sit together when we had nothing to do. Thinking of how you used to fall asleep lying on my cold parquet floor. Even the ugliest looking you can still be the nicest. :x After that, I on my laptop and browsed through our photos again. I could remember vividly the places which we took them and what we were doing. :)

Now, I'm waiting... Waiting for my laptop battery to be fully charged! I'll remember those movies which I had missed because you watched with your friends instead of me! So! To get back what I've lost, I'm so going to watch them tonight! Hahaha. :D

P.S. Transformer 2

I Am Happy!

Hahaha! I'm so glad that you text me! Telling me to rest early when I was ill. Happy happy! That was not the last message we had. Today you text me again. Asked me about the funeral that I attended as you are attending the same funeral tomorrow. (Dr Goh Keng Swee's)

Later, we chat on MSN. I felt so afresh when I talk to you. It really feels as though I am a close friend. I'm so glad. :D

To wrap things up, I was busy last few days and was ill as well, so I didn't do much I guess, and I was supposed to have my review today when I was told that I was chosen with some other friends to attend Dr Goh Keng Swee's funeral. He saved me today. But I still have my review tomorrow. Fortunately! I have nothing left to do! I think I am ready! Drawings and model done! Happy happy!

Okay!

I think I know, maybe not. However, I really have to say this if even anyone agrees or disagrees with me! It is mostly my fault for letting go such a sweet relationship. Yes, I said MOSTLY. Because of me, I caused you so much hurt, but you respected me and decided to let me go because you love me. So! I have decided to leave backwards. Not going back in time but reduce the days we spent together for each passing day. Counting down, still got 1 year, 4 months and 5 days. I know it does sound stupid. But that is so much I can do for you now. It is alright that you do not talk to me or whatever, I understand. Just want to say again, I'm sorry for things to become like that. I do it sincerely. :)

My greatest hope is that you'll live well, sleep more, eat regularly and be happy okay!

P.S. I hope I won't be a stalker. :x

Its Been A Week

It feels like how I waited for you in the past when you were just a recruit! 2 weeks or so without texting and calling. Haha. I really do hope that we can still talk in anyway because your quietness to me is so disturbing, as though something is stuck within me. Don't shut me up entirely as I really want to be a friend who cares and talks to you. To forget you is impossible.

I don't know how you've been doing. I've been blogging because I don't want to seek so much attention from other people just to listen to how I feel and think. At least by posting them here, people understand but won't talk to me personally. For me, it is just a way to release whatever I want to say so I won't keep so many things inside if not I'll die of depression! Haha. However, by saying it here, it lessens what I am thinking and feeling in a way that I won't keep replaying that memory.

I have no intention to offend anyone.

I had once asked you a very common question, usually a girl would ask,"what if one day your mother and me were drowning, who will you save first?" Your answer was that you'll save your mother. I was like so sad... But you followed on with,"then I'll go back into the water and die with you." That very moment I cried as I was so touched. I also remembered telling my friends about it and was about to tear again that day.

What I Think Of Now

I am forgetting the dates. I guess it is because I don't look forward for any day already. Each day passes quietly as long as I am doing my work. So quiet that I don't know when I'll get used to it. In the past, I always count each day, from the start of the week to the fifth. I can't wait because I am expecting to see you. I'm happy to walk pass interchange holding your hand.

I used to think of the problems that both of us will share in future. I used to think of how happy you made me felt that day or how disappointed I was. Since that day we broke up, my mind was so free from all the problems that I could sleep without thinking of anything.

It has been almost a week now, all the memories that we both shared kept flashing in my head. The thought of going NTUC reminded me of how we used to shop for groceries and the ingredients that we needed to buy for lunch or dinner that day. The thought of how fun it was shopping for things we like and comparing the prices. I just wonder when will I have the courage to go NTUC again, because I'm going there alone.

Well, enough of that already. The more things I say, the more I feel like crying. I'm still coping well. Thinking back, I'll still be sad but not to the extend of crying. I hope you are doing fine and I hope you would talk to me soon. :)

Starting To Treasure

The thumbdrive you gave/lent me, I'm beginning to treasure it. Though the space isn't big, 2GB, I will still use it. :)

I feel that when the person is there beside you, sometimes you may not treasure him/her, because it has been so natural that you had taken it for granted. When he/she is gone, what's left the closest to you is the thing that he/she has given you. It may be a small item like mine, but it carries a lot of memories. The thing that stays forever is the memory. :)

I'm Happy Just To See You Online

I know it is weird. But it makes me glad to see you online, not talking to me is fine. Hope that I can talk to you like normal again! :)

I Am Doing Fine! I Hope You Are Too!

Everything feels so light now. I'm really glad you let me go, because you love me. At least now I am back to my own self. Went to church today, totally engulfed by the presence of God. It really felt like home. Well, it is time to go home. To somewhere I used to be so carefree. I have left home for sometime now, really feels good to be back, especially with my family this time. They are my support! I love them! Hope you are doing well, booking in and out. Such a sociable guy, I guess you'll spend more time with your friends now. Take care! :D

The Emotions

It feels weird to see the phone lying there so quietly. It feels different for your absence. I need a break through. So many things are holding me back. I want to step out in faith!

That Is It

Since that is the way after confirming. I guess I'll have to give up totally. I shall not think of any possible way of patching anymore. Cheer me on! There is no going back! Thank you for clearing my thoughts and hope for anything to happen in future between us. I know it'll be difficult this few days. But it will worth for the future and the life ahead. You too, will not feel so burdened by me anymore. I wish you all the best. Take care and the last goodbye. :)

I Will Never Regret

Out of love we decided to let go of this relationship. I'll not regret for breaking up so soon. It has been done and set. At least we agreed peacefully not out of anger. Hope you'll find someone better than me and the right person too. :)

P.S. Don't block me off totally. Though I can no longer love you, I still care for you and want to know how you are doing. :)

What Makes Me Cry Now

It is the sweet memories of the past. It is the thought of loneliness. It is when it has been so natural that when you're gone, I don't know what to do. It is when you are always there that made me so dependent on you that now I have to depend on myself. Never getting to see you, hear you and touch you again.

Thank You

I want to thank you for loving me, missing me and taking care of me. Our life together was like roller coaster. Sad, disappointed, happy, thrilled and all the feelings that one could think of. I want thank you for being there most of the time and treating me meals or movie most of the time. You're a great person and a very loving boyfriend whom I loved so much. I thank you for you're the only one whom I had cried so much. You're the one that I've loved so deeply and more each day. You've made me mature and learn how to treasure the possible time together. I thank you for the little surprises and the little gifts. I'll keep them for they bring back our sweet moments. One day when I know I am able to start a new life, I'll not throw them away, but keep them somewhere safe where I know they are from a very very good friend. Thank you for all the things you've done for me. I'll remember you and all the things that we've been through.


NTUC - Cold Storage - IKEA - GIANT - Aunty Anne's - Whitesands - Tampines Mall - Tampines 1 - Tamp. Interchange - West Plaza - Coffeeshop - Basketball Court - Bus - Train - Raffles Place - Movie Theater - Fish Soup - Sushi Tei - Ehub - Downtown Chalet - CNY - Birthday - Making cake together - Piglets - Just so many things -

All Promises Will Be Broken Now

It is a pity. All the things that were once said happily and excitedly are going to be empty promises. The joy that both shared when making that promise has become a memory.

I Wanted You To Know

So many things you've missed out. I've cut my nails, wanted you to see how much I've trimmed. I wanted you to see my index finger which I've broke that nail accidentally. I wanted you to see how many pimples I had on my forehead. I wanted you to know I didn't have dinner yesterday night (Friday, 7/5/10). I wanted to show you my portfolio which I spent nearly 40 bucks, though I guess was the cheapest among my coursemates, but still expensive. I wanted to watch Ip Man 2 with you, which Ip Man 1 was the movie that we first got attached. It brought back so many memories. I wanted you to know that I've had menses yesterday, to hear you say,"rest more."

All Came Down Finally...

Photo taken on 25/12/08


You've matured. Since the first time I'm with you. I'm glad that you don't have worries for anything. I'm glad you passed your IPPT, and no more confinement, which means I can meet you on weekends. I'm glad to know you and fortunate to be your girlfriend for 1 year 4 months and 12 days. It has been my record so far. However, I'm really tired of waiting for something that will be in vain in future. I'm tired of crying and thinking about the same thing every night. Everything has changed. I've told you before that we'll break up one day. Why not now? As the chinese always say, "Chang Tong Bu Ru Duan Tong". I won't have to think about it every night and feel like crying because you're saying goodbye after seeing me. I know it hurts. But if you love me, please let me go...

I was sad because you decided to play basketball on Firday, 7/5/10, and meet me the next day. However, there's no more next day for us. That wasn't the reason for the break up. The reason for sending it on Friday is because I can cool myself down during the weekends. I used to wait patiently for Friday every week to see you. I always spend my weekends with you. Well, all had changed. Now I have to wait for the feeling to fade and be gone. It has been done. I didn't know realationship could hurt so much... But I'll look on the bright side. Don't worry about me. I hopw you too. Take good care of yourself for I won't be there anymore. Live well and be happy. :)


P.S. I'll remember you and all the things that we did together.


Monday, 3/5/10 - Holiday today, and I met up with you for dinner. As usual, your treat. :) I didn't expect myself to cry at the interchange that day. A feeling of lost when you're gone, a feeling of missing you. I cried also because I feared for the worst for it to be the last day I get to see you, hear you and touch you. Then it was.